i feel so out so not included i feel that i'm just not with them i can't add in and include myself and i will feel so out and zi bei again just like this puzzle where you can;t fit it in anywhere regardless how hard you try how hard you try to force it in it just doesn';t fit and in the end you just have to throw it away cos it's of nos use and so it's unwanted i feel i do not belong anywhere i feel that sinking feeling and i feel the same way as that abandoned puzzle i feel neglected and bad and i so i'm out so out too out that i can't be in ever again