22:16
我放弃了,
这次是彻底地放弃了
and you always have this illusion you can do it and no you should tell yourself you are not fit for it you are useless and thus you should just go back to being your nice good wonderful ddiao where you can simply achieve everything didn't you ddiao so well then right so just continue to be in that state cos how could ever be high hurhhh when you need conditions to being high those who are real good don't even have to choose their company you have to ohhh kayyy you need certain reaction conditions before you have high see how lan you are how inferior as compared to others how toot and you think you can do it pui you can't ohh kayyy you don't even have to think about it just go back go back to your ddiao isn;t that what you've been wanting ddiao hurhhh yes yes yes go back go back don;t socialise le cos that'll only make you feel even more depressed even more sad ohhh kayyy fine make friends but don;t socialise don't cos if you continue to do so you'll fall very heavily really no one's going to give you recognition de so don't socialise le sit back xiao shi disappear go invisible don't ever appear again cos even if you appear no one will even know you are there you are just a shadow don't you get it you don't exist at all you are just one lump of darkness whereby people can kick you wherever they wish you are not important not at all so go back go back don't ever appear again don't or you know it'll bring you even more stupid feelings so go back now go back you are hated you are despised so don't appear go away
00:00
很久没有这么多 tags le 所以随便吧
wahahahh typing in chinese proves that i'm emo lalala today was hmm ohh kayyy i learn more that's good bah i suppose i think even no one tells me i still would have gotten a rough rough idea but don;t really exactly know who is who that kind of thing at least better than you lorhh eyu tskk tskk like don;t know anything like that blahhhh
i want to do hui xun blahhh no hui xun at least i want to do pai ban it sounds interesting ohh kayyy and i want to try never do before lorhhhh tskkk
yepps so long no one tag le so reply yi xia bahh cos i don;t want to flood my tagboard as you can see all my tags/replies are like so long long long blehhh
EVELYN: whahaha thanks ahhh for tagging lalala wahahha recently it's not as continuous le whahahah and everybody has their own writing style de lorhhh you also have you own unique writing style de what lalala wahhaha and about class blog don;t know lehhh they say nobody will update or read de but of course i will you know whahah shall see see lalala if want to do must gan kuai do or very late le no point whahha back to my style of writing yeppps i don;t like it when people misunderstands me when i use caps blahhh even though it's not their fault blehhhs tskkk tskkk
XINYANN: whahahha paisehhh ahhh recently i'm always attitude de and pissed off blahh blahhh you go talk about revolutionary changes bahh and see what responses you get i think if i go say everyone will ignore me de lorhh blahhs sui bian le i'm totally immune to all of these and as for dui mian de ren blahhh can don;t see them then try not to see them they are all very scary people i won;t every dare talk to them de they are scary and attitude i don;t like and i;m sure the feeling is neutral blahhh i cannot socialise with them they are always like that de blehhhs i'm dreading jc i don;t want to know the other half of the school and plus zhongyang sounds scary and they say gong wei cannot play play de and i;m those kind of play play people so cannot yepps don;t want already i shall just go down to mix around or what disappear and become ddiao again whahah i don;t know i don;t want to be ddiao le yet i want to remain ddiao blahhs so mao dun hurhh hurhhh
PASSERBY: wahhaha you are amusing lalala i wonder how you got to this blog de lorhhh and why have i never seen/talked to you i don;t believe i'm guessing you are from the same school as me which i'm assuming you would know and i think you are a junior come come i want to find out who you are lala cos you are so random and i think my blog has nothing much that could reveal me as who i am you get what i mean not like i put my name or blahs on my blog and i don;t believe you know how i looked like anyway ohh mann what am i talking about come come and understand this ohh kayy i want to know who you are lorhhh ohhh guai guai say who you are or just come and talk to me then i will know lalala
whahaha see see see my replies/tags are so long i feel proud of myself one of these days i must think of ways to make use of this talent blehhh i'm falling asleep le pui kayy tomorrow shall wake up early to do last minute stuff i discover i'm always so luo suo run-on-lines lorhhh tsktsk i'm feeling so lethargic and yesterdays run make my legs suan de arhhh blehs i'm slow but i'm sort of proud i can run 5 rounds in 9 min plus plus arhhh but napfa cannot de ohh mann i'm definitely falling asleep i don;t understahnd what i'm saying i can just see the things tapping tpapping de the thing arghh suan le shui jiao qu bahhsleeping shi xing fu de
23:55
i really xian mu those people who are so committed to their cca they are so involved they have the passion and they can slog slog slog for their loves blahhhh
23:17
blah emo people are scary de whhaahaa and i tell you it's difficult de ohh kayyyy not like i can always be high like that this is not 408 ohh kayy where i can be siao and at least you ren hui li wo not like there when i'm totally liang zai yi bian i totally cannot make it
blahhh emo emo wahhaahhah but block tests are over whahah and according to liyue then there's no more ci ji stuff anymore whahha liyue she should go sit on some roller coaster then she'll know what's the real ci ji lalala
and xx totally ego dao arrogant ohhh kayyyy tskkkk i still want to give you xin ling shang de an wei ohhh kayyyy whahaha but you don;t need de tskkk you blahhhh
and eyu ni tai lan le how could you forget how many days you went yingxin lalala
and wenqi so sad the pizza is not vegetarian lalala
and what else lehhh yepps today hadd march babies bday celebs yayyy (((:
and we can then start thinking about what we should eat for next month budget budget lalala and we can think about how to make chiang feels involved also lalala
whahaha i still want a class blog ohh kayyy zhen shi de
so random and seriously i think it's only dui mian de ren lorhhh they are the only people whom i cannot socialise with de yeppps i think wahhaha i realise i prefer juniors more arghhhh dui mian de blahhhh three letter one word kind sian sian response arghhhs totally cannot stand it blehhhh
ARGGHHHH RANDOM BLAHHHHH
18:47
我越来越没有信心了,
是不是在这种时候,
我就要学会,
放弃?
01:12
randomly went to do quizes when i should be doing some studying lalala BLOCK TESTS ARE NOT YET OVER SHUCKS (((: and plus had wonderful and exciting msn chats just now and it makes me feel good lalala
You Are An Exclamation Point
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You are a bundle of... well, something.
You're often a bundle of joy, passion, or drama.
You're loud, brash, and outgoing. If you think it, you say it.
Definitely not the quiet type, you really don't keep a lot to yourself.
You're lively and inspiring. People love to be around your energy.
(But they do secretly worry that you'll spill their secrets without even realizing it.)
You excel in: Public speaking
You get along best with: the Dash
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What Punctuation Mark Are You?people who are dashes shall tell me who you are then i'll know if i get along well with you lalala but anyway this kind of test is not very true bahhhh lalala (((:
00:13
this is super uber random but i just want to say
THANK YOU 408'08 FOR GIVING ME THAT CHANCE EVEN THOUGH WE MIGHT STILL NOT BE THAT BONDED YETTT WE ARE GETTING BETTER YEPPS YEPPS WE HAVE CLASS CHEER CLASS SONG CLASS TEE CLASS STUFF OH YAYYYY THESE ARE WU ZHI STUFF BUT YOU KNOW I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER OHH KAYYY LOVES YOU 408
and you know lingying really is like that de ohhh kayyy it's like they are another group all by itself another thing away from the rest they feel bonded themselves bahhh i suppose i feel gandong by it ohh kayyy really so qin qie ohhh kayyyy and when can we really achieve that
it's difficult ohhh kayyyy i just want that chance i will reliven my passion ohhh kayyyy
22:30
lalala supposed to pia-ing so many stuff but you know to give myself a break whahha even though i've like done nothing at all
yepps wah lao eh guo you ying liao lorhhh i cannot make it larhh tsk tsk cannot cannot i'm already not very ddiao le lehhh you know but still hurh hurh i cannot enthu lehhh cannot be high high high so sadddd arghhhhs never mind
so random totally feeling so sad about it le larhh the frequency really matters ohhh kayyy so many dui mian de ppl are so high up i totally cannot high with them de lorhhh kayy larhh maybe can high but you know haven;t reached this stage that you can high with them stage ohh mannn what am i talking about lalala yepps so mo sheng and so weird ohhh kayyy they are all weird weird people so attitude so indifferent wah lao ehhhh weird weird what am i talking about blahs this is so random shucks shucks
back to pia-ing mode
22:12
oh yayyy wonderful it's barely two days to the return of school ehhh barely one day lala shoots and thus it made me see how screwed i am now and how slack i have been oh mann shucks
and people still dao-ed me de ehhh no larhhh today was better (((: yepps i loved the talks lorhhh even though i fell asleep lalala and struggled with differentiation which i need to attempt with an average of two times for each question in order to get the correct correct answer
oh wonderful look at my beautiful english blehs cannot make it de lorhhh bsp right hurh hurh
but bsp symp is really enriching lorhhh whahahha LOVES (((; what with all those talks and all those in between food lalala
hohoho SENIORS right lalala now i'm in like hcjc j1/njc/npcc/sec3 etcetcetc lalala
LOVES <3
20:18
ehhhh people still dao me lehhhh they don't recognise me de so saddd eeyer tskkk i'm so hurt ohh mannn today totally lost my xing xiang ohhh mann no no no next time i shall be cool cool de lalala whahaha
i'm so glad i left early lalala
20:15
OH YAYYYY HUANG CHENG MUACKS ((((;
but i still feel so cheated sixteen dollars for that kind of seat and all seniors dao-ed me i realise i don't socialise with seniors de then no one bothers sadddd
BUT STILLL LOVE YOU HUANG CHENG ((((:
and when you really go and watch it you really feel the power of bonding kayy maybe on the outside they look so bonded and so wonderful and so good and you never knew what's happening in the inside but still you sense it the power how influential it is to the people you really feel gan dong you really feel it nice nice feeling
and that's the bonding i want i join ccas for their bonding i discover
and i feel this urge to learn to sing hua chu de ge oh mann i want i want the bond the wonderful feeling ohhh mannnn ohh mann
OHHH YAYYY PEOPLE BOND BOND BOND BOND BOND BOND OHHH YAYYYY
00:10
ohh yayyyy i was sad about the class photo again ohh mannn BUT AT THE SAME TIME I REALISE I FEEL APOLOGETIC TOO OHHH MANNN WHAHHA MADE YOU ALL WAIT SO LONG AND EVENTUALLY STILL DON'T HAVE A COMPLETE CLASS PHOTO OHH MANN
yeppps teachers' day must must must take
and OUR THANK YOUS ARE DEDICATED TO EACH AND EVERYONE IN 408 YEPPPS AND BECAUSE OF EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WE CAN PULL IT OFF TOGETHER YOU KNOW SO IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER (kay larhh in reg no)
THANK YOU YUNJIA THANK YOU CHILING THANK YOU CHECHI THANK YOU ESTER THANK YOU CHENCHEN THANK YOU CHENTIAN THANK YOU NICOLE THANK YOU HSIU CHIN THANK YOU XINYI THANK YOU ELISE THANK YOU FELICIA THANK YOU LANYA THANK YOU LIYUE THANK YOU JASMINE THANK YOU SUYUN THANK YOU SHUMEI THANK YOU EVELYN THANK YOU WENQI THANK YOU ZHUODA THANK YOU JANABEL THANK YOU YEZHEN THANK YOU ZHIYING THANK YOU YUNGHIAN THANK YOU LYDIA THANK YOU PATRICIA THANK YOU CHERYL THANK YOU SOOHAN THANK YOU YANXIN THANK YOU PEIYING THANK YOU VIVIEN THANK YOU CINDY THANK YOU XIAOXI THANK YOU EYU
((((((:
AND MY LOVELY SEXAYYYYY VOICE IS DISAPPEARING WHAHAHHA SO SADDDD (((: LALALA
HUANG CHENG TOMORROW YAYYYYY ((((:
22:31
ARGHHHH CAME BACK FROM GRACES WAHAHHA I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAYYY OHH MANN I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT THE WHOLE DAY LORHHH OHHH MANNNNN
i shall not do it in a recount style
ohhh mannn i feel so sadd and so regretful I WANT CLASS PHOTO OHHH MANNN especially with our nice nice class tee and plus it's the first time we are wearing it together as a class kayyyy and plus plus there's this nice green green pasture like field ohhh mann i feel so sad eeyerrrr and then i went to see all my photos and i realise because i didn'r check my photos after every shot there are like so many blur blur ones and plus plus plus the class photos is not the whole class de so on the whole either it is blur or it doesn't have the whole class de and that means i don't have any proper nice nice class photos EEYERRRRRR
but i feel so appreciated whahaahh i feel my presence in the class lalala yayyyyy i feel i'm part of the class yayyyy unlike in sec 1 sec 2 times people know i was not there PEOPLE KNOWS OH KAYYY unlike in the past nobody knows de they don;t care ohh kayyyy
很阿Q 但是可能就是在这种时候 我可以告诉自己这就是缺陷美 虽然很遗憾 但是我真的感觉到自己属于408 班 自己从来都没有被遗忘过 我也是班上的一部分this is the sense of belonging i want you know the kind when you feel part of it you feel you belong you feel you have to be in the class photo and people knows you are equally important people knows you are not there people knows you need to be in there to make the class photo complete whahah i'm being ego but i feel so important finally for once i feel important ((((:
ohh yayyyy now i'm feeling more coherent i shall reiterate what i wanted to say onstage for the ms personality thing one whahahah i know it's a bit too late larhh but you know you know (((:
"BECAUSE I'M DDIAO COS EVERYONE LOVES THE KEY DDIAO COS DDIAO IS EVERYONE'S FAVOURITE DIAO AND THAT'S WHY EVERYONE LOVES ME AND I'M EVERYONE'S FAVOURITE MISS PERSONALITY"
kayyy random watching the ah meng thing so sadd i never really thought how ah meng looks like when she died she's 48 and now on tv i saw it's so sad so ke lian ohh mannnn chomel who is ah meng's granddaughter looks so cute arghhh
kayyy end of random ahhh suddenly i thought of our last night then we started high-ing and taking photos in jasmine/yunghian/shu mei/zhi ying's room which adjoins soo han/lydia/xinyi/chentian's room lalala they stayed in block D (D FOR DDIAO!) on the second floor somemore haiyo and it was so noisy there kayy larhh re nao cos 407 like totally owns there larhh BUT NEVER MIND WE ARE ALSO HIGHH AND NOISY AND RE NAO ALSO IN OUR OWN ROOMS OHH KAYY WE ARE DEMURE SO WE DON'T LOSE OUR YI TAI OUTSIDE LALALA WE ARE SO GLAM SO WE ARE DOING EVERYTHING INSIDE WITHIN OURSELVES AND ENJOYING OURSELVES SO SO SO MUCH ALL THE SAME LALALA
yeppps i was trying to pass on this fei hua information to the whole class kayyy whahhaha
"tomorrow wear class tee" lalala so fei hua whahahaah ohh yayyyyy CLASS TEEE EVELYN! CHEN TIAN! I'M SO PROUD OF OUR CLASS TEE AND YAYYY WE FINALLY FINISHED IT OH YAYYYYY
AND YAYYYY MOST GRACIOUS CLASS OHH KAYY PLUS BEST SONG LALALA (((((:
WAHAHHAH SEE SEE SEE EVERYONE CAN HIGH DE IF WE WNAT TO EVEN THOUGH WE MAY NOT BE AS SPONTANEOUS SOMETIMES BUT YOU KNOW WHEN NEED TO BE WHEN NECESSARY WE CAN HIGH HIGH HIGH AND WE CAN SHAKE THE WHOLE PLACE DOWN KAYYYY OHH YAYYYYY LALALA (((: I'M SO PROUD LALALA
OH YAYYYY proud to be ddiao, PROUDER TO BE EIGHT-XTRAORDINARY LALALA ((((:
AND CLASS CHEER WHICH EYU AND CINDY THOUGHT OF DE ((((: WHAHAHHA
5 6 7 8
WE CAN SHAKE *claps claps claps*
WE ARE GREAT *claps claps claps*
WE ARE EIGHT *claps* XTRA *claps* DINA *claps* RY *claps*
因为我们是 4...0...
BA BA BA BA BABABA BA BABA BA BABA BA BA~~~~~
4 0 8!
HUAT AH (((((:
OHH YAYYYYY CLASS CHEER WHAHAHA oh i thought of another cheer again whahhhah
IT'S MICKEY MOUSE!
IT'S BUBBLES!
NO IT'S 408!
EIGHT-XTRA CUTE~~~~~
LALALA I'M SO RANDOM WHHAHAHHA
kayyyy people remember to upload the photos onto photobucket lalala (((((: ehhh i want class blog also lorhhhh (((((:
OHHH YAYYYYY FOUR EIGHT! YOU ARE LOVED! <3333
MUACKS ((((((:
23:49
YESSSSS I SHALL DO IT FOR MYSELF NOT FOR ANY OTHER PERSON
23:28
HIGH HIGH HIGH oh man let's all be high mann
and sometimes when i thought high-ing was just so easy you just scream and shout and be happy and enjoy whahhaha easy lalala and then i think back and i discovered and realises to my horror really i can't just get high like that think about those camps when yepps all are wrong nothing sounds high to me but everyone are like so high while i can be just so erhhhh cynical? whahahha i don't know lalala and then eventually i accomplished so much more when i was doing everything all by myself ohhh mannn i'm such a weird person and i discovered getting high is like so difficult the company matters also kayyy it is so so so important lalala
our class is so not high whahahah but then i came to realise it's just the way we are it;s not a bad thing really not particularly we are all so different that's our style ddiao is our style yayyyy it's difficult if all of a sudden you expect the whole class to stand and jump around and yell or cheer at the top of our voices or what respond enthu-ly or just laugh out loud wahhahahh ohhh mannn that's so not us it'll be so scary come to think of it
whahahha so i've so so so decided our class performance yeppps we put in so much even though it looks as though those are all easy easy work but stilll it's good yepps great people let;s love our class item lalala love our class everything whahaha and one day i hope maybe we can find something to express ourselves to portray ourselves as something apart from ddiao and apart from highhhh
GET HIGH MANNNN and i'm not always high high high de lorhhhh I'M DDIAO lalala