and you always have this illusion you can do it and no you should tell yourself you are not fit for it you are useless and thus you should just go back to being your nice good wonderful ddiao where you can simply achieve everything didn't you ddiao so well then right so just continue to be in that state cos how could ever be high hurhhh when you need conditions to being high those who are real good don't even have to choose their company you have to ohhh kayyy you need certain reaction conditions before you have high see how lan you are how inferior as compared to others how toot and you think you can do it pui you can't ohh kayyy you don't even have to think about it just go back go back to your ddiao isn;t that what you've been wanting ddiao hurhhh yes yes yes go back go back don;t socialise le cos that'll only make you feel even more depressed even more sad ohhh kayyy fine make friends but don;t socialise don't cos if you continue to do so you'll fall very heavily really no one's going to give you recognition de so don't socialise le sit back xiao shi disappear go invisible don't ever appear again cos even if you appear no one will even know you are there you are just a shadow don't you get it you don't exist at all you are just one lump of darkness whereby people can kick you wherever they wish you are not important not at all so go back go back don't ever appear again don't or you know it'll bring you even more stupid feelings so go back now go back you are hated you are despised so don't appear go away