YAY XI SONG YAY NYCO! (((: thankful for being a part thank you (((:

i am not exactly the most enthu co member and i don;t really feel excited before the concert
but when it's real concert time you really start to realise that it's coming to an end these 4 years and the concert oh man it's sad this is the concert after effects
i really felt the concert spirit going i'm thankful
and thankful for these past 4 years i get to have so many opportunities i'm not worthy for all of them yet i had the chance i'm thankful i'm sorry
i think i will miss this
i want to go for cca now have the sudden passion towards it hmm whahah maybe cos everything's over and i just want to catch whatever there's got left

thank you sorry have fun and enjoy

WHAHAHAH INFATUATION WITH SHUAI GES LALALA NYCO HAS SO MANY SHUAI GES WAHAHAHHAHA FAINTS LALALA ((((:

LALA NYCO THANK YOU FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE IT MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT CHOICE BUT THE NOT TOO PERFECT MAKES EVERYTHING SO WONDERFUL AND SO LOVELY THANK YOU YOU ARE LOVED NYCO I WILL MISS YOU IT'LL NEVER BE THE SAME THANK YOU

to think i've been count downing to this day yet when it really comes i really don't want to let go

i realised i cry ever so easily blahhhs loser pui
waahhahahah

我宁愿你们永远都不要了解我
就一直记着我辛苦打造的这个形象 就好了
不要破坏它嘛

我只是想保护自己,不行吗?
我不想再失去了,我也不想再受到伤害
请你不要再提醒我自己是个这么悲哀、这么烂的人
你就让我用自己的方式小心小心地去走
我可能已经承受不了更多的挫折，
我已经很乐观地面对一切
我真的很想珍惜我仅存的家庭
我不要再失去了、我也不要再受伤
这是我保护自己的方式
因为除了家人，没有人会理你，没有人会管你，甚至没有人会想要去保护一个这么烂、这么坏的人
我是个很可怕的人，在背后偷偷做了些什么你们都不懂，所以我很烂
我不再单纯了
我都不晓得我这种烂人、这种没用的人、这种无情的人，为何会存在
你说的对，我是应该与世隔绝的，这样才不会害到别人，这样才能静静地消失
反正也没有人会理我 我为什么要这么在乎

i'm wonderful at stereotyping

no wonder i always fail my ih cos i keep generalising hmmmm

ohohoh and playing badminton with yanxin is scary she's so bao li unlike me so gentle and wen rou lalala

and i'm pure and innocent too

whahah yanxin also knew her for four years le bahhh sort of knew herr at least i know her existence hmmm with her it's this kind of weird link sometimes we agree with each other we can be so so so adamant about our point of view that we will together violently object to other points of view and when we don't we always have big big fights and scary scary quarrels i always can;t win these battles and so i am always the one flaring up de and losing control and that we will have cold wars so ironic whahhah i can't even count how many cold wars we've had le

it all started with synergy camp at anderson bahh then china immersion and so on

weird weird de guan xi but i never imagine that i we could reach to this kind of relationship

lala today is fun fair hohoho
and surprisingly i spent a lot lalala
last year le
this year like everything very screwed
whahaha not only us only and i thought we would be the worst
wahhhah ohh kayyy larhh we aren't so bad
ohh mann ying liao lorhhh four thirteen's haunted house once again made history
hmmm
lala but they really are good lala
and put in a lot of effort

lalala xi song xi song xi song
lalala and i finally am able to catch up in dazu
finally
lalala i want to feel the concert feel again

lalala and i realise i don't bond well with seniors and juniors
blahhhs lan lan cannot stand it
and i realise i have still got a long way to go
ny's got so many ppl
blahhhs what am i thinking about

sabbollec has a lot of biantai ppl
blahhhs pollute my pure and innocent mind
hmm tskk tskkk
biantai stuff can even appear in physics
wonderful man xiaoxi
and your more wonderful jing dian ming yan
blahhhs and tskk still openly say to everyone
powerful man

whahaha we always discuss ahem ahem stuff so so so discreetly lala
so han xu whahahah

how are we going to survive in jc hurhhhh
and that includes xiaoxi too
talk so little but everything that comes out of her sounds crappy
what "i will concentrate only on a levels'"
blahhhs lame si and plus you don;t even have to concentrate on them de lorhh
you can sleep through them all and then get what all As?
blahhhs xiaoxi your class tee should be "proud to be proud" instead hurhh

mannn why is this post all about xiaoxi
blahhhs whahaah i almost always have the same mindset as xx lalala
which i think is badd whahaha because of that doing projects with her is hmmm
lalala slack but definitely will get things done at the very last minute
whahaha BIO SIA lalala someone whom i feel at ease doing projects lalala
but she always gives me that stupid pissed off look always de lorhhh

knew so many people for four years already but very few whom i really got close to or really talk to at ease
the kind of feeling for which you can just talk crap and suan and arrow them
you can answer them instantly don;t even have to care much everything's like very natural like you don;t have to think think think or what before you reply or whatever
undescribable

i want to list them all out whaahha and currently i could only think of xiaoxi and lizi
and the first time i met them in sec 1 are through some silly stuff whahaha
i hope there's more cos it's sad to know that you may know so many people or in fact know them for four years already yet the people whom you can communicate to are those few

whahhahaah i'm so weird

lalala and people doesn't understand that DDIAO is a pun
if you are ddiao you will soon be forgotten just like erhu ddiao too long never play i'll feel odd odd de and so become more low key you will soon just disappear

that's how you are going to survive in jc

我才发现原来讨论帅哥不是每个人的专利

i want to have an angmoh accenttttttt~~~~

i was feeling super emo and was planning to fill another post with all those emo and rants blehhhhs

but i was happy cos i felt so loved yayyyy it feels like a friday and we sat down as a family and talked blahhhhs

it was so precious

i never open up to my peers hmmm so i never had this kind of feeling because they don't understand nobody understands and i will not let them understand

i'm such a scary person