i think school's really making me feel super lousy super saddening super demoralising where did all my optimism go or do i even have that before

i can't seem to find the kind of joy i get when i was in primary sch or secondary sch the kind of anticipation i get the day before school reopens i once looked forward to school that was super long ago and now i just feel like escaping clamming myself up staying at home away from school

i think e learnings were actually marking days for teachers why can't just they let us off and declare those days as marking days instead

haix i was actually quite surprised at the teachers' marking speed i didn't want to get them back so fast i just wanted to enjoy a few more days of happiness or whatever you called it not like this giving me blows and blows after blows

nothing is going well at all nothing