--hugging tightly to theblackbox``

2009-08-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

jin tian shi yi ge mao dun de yi tian

2009-08-26T20:55:00.001+08:00

ohh today is qi yue chu qi (: qi qiao jie (: qi xi qing ren jie omg (; nice :D

2009-08-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

i don't like to hear that i've broken down it makes me feel very weak breaking down is weak i know but it's just i don't like to hear that i don't like to feel weak i don't want to feel so vulnerable breaking down is just too shameful but i just couldn't help it again be strong be strong i need to be strong strong strong

i hate that it's always like this hate that i can't control myself hate that i'm so weak hate that i'm so lousy i hate myself

lousy lousy lousy i always feel so drained and tired after that totally couldn't mug math efficiently

2009-08-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

yays spas are all over left math test on tue hmms by then i think would have much more free time i guess? hmms time to give away all those backdated presents haix yepps and start preparing for promos le bah haix my mom's starting to restrict me a lot le haix

my sis's taking her prelims tmr le haix but she's still like so you zai xian zai haix

haix i like changi airport and airplanes and such haix nice nice feeling (:

friday was a mao dun day haix

but yays met mrlim and juniors yays so interesting whahhas looking forward for them to come over nxt yr to entertain me lalalas (:

2009-08-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

2009-08-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

有时抵挡不了诱惑就会做出不好的事为什么这么简单我却还是败的一塌涂地时光过得好快我想出国我不想上学我太失败了已经没有什么好期望的我的人生我的前途是一片迷茫

TABOO! :D

2009-08-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

physics lecture test today haix idk somehow it feels easier than expected blahhs maybe it's cos we were all able to finish the test within the time or sth but haix but i realise i've got a lot of mistakes le haix sian so saddening ahhh physicsssss

and after physics lecture test we all feel so slack and qing song omg see how much stress physics is giving us whahhas and suddenly we have like so much time on our hands and it feels like a friday wahhas we wanted to play fei ji qi but then there's no board haixx and so we koped some class' de snakes and ladders board and start playing lalalas haix wanted to play taboo lorhh but welfare room not open sadd

wahhas so in the afternoon we played taboo lalalas nice nice whahhas i like these kind of board games yayys (:

ehh ehh and bus ride home is rather interesting whahas

最近听到了一个故事了解到学会做一个被领导的人也是很重要的

why can't i just overcome this stupid psychological barrier thing idk idk it feels like ppl all ard me are all getting it but i'm like the super shibai person which yarh i know i'm lousy and shibai but idk i just can't get over this entire stupid thing stupid stupid stupid

ahhhhh i hope i can pass

IT'S THE NINTH OF AUGUST! :D

2009-08-09T22:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D

YAYYS I LIKE THE NDP PROG THIS YEAR HEHHS :D

LALALAS :D

FOREVER FRIEND BEAR! :D

2009-08-04T02:27:00.002+08:00

WHAHAHAS YAYYS I LIKE FOREVER FRIEND BEARS THEY ARE VERY FAT AND CUDDLY AND HAVE A NICE COLOUR AND NICE FUR NICE TO HUG I SUPPOSE SINCE THEY ARE FAT WHAHAHS I WANT THE BIG BIG ONE

但是已经知道有很多东西不是都等得到的最后还是要靠自己的吧

haixxxx chionging csc at this time sianzzz and i haven't even started dng my eom yet siannz

不知道为什么我明明能控制的但最后还是被它控制了好烂好懦弱好无助

haiiix i knew it will be very straining this is very bad it just makes me have headaches and feel very tired and blahs siannnz see how i wasted my whole evening and night cos of this but haix it's super hard to stop super difficult i am still not that pro saddd

FIRST OF AUGUST!

2009-08-01T20:19:00.002+08:00

it's first of august today

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S AUGUST ALR!

haiz this is so idk saddening and depressing time flies super fast esp this yr maybe it's like bu zhi bu jue yi jing guo le ba ge yue omg so scary and nxt yr's gng to come and haix nxt yr's gng to pass even faster i guess haix scary

i like how this yr's national preparation is involving those children from the special schools packing of the ndp bags i guess will be sth like a big accomplishment to them i like how the emphasis is not solely on donating money to these less fortunate ppl but rather involving them accepting them into our society to show that they are not forgotten as well i guess what they need is not pity it's just a form of acceptance and respect

2009-07-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

haix wkends are super short i just realised it it's like i know that wkends are only like 2to3 days and yepps it's short but i've nvr really felt that it's that short haiz where are all those days when there are like a lot of public hols or sch hols which follow after the wkends haix and not too long after blks all the random tests come swarming in which is so yikes haix i want more wkends i want everyday to the wkends i want more time to finish up my unfinished stuffs i need to have more discipline i want longer wkends i want extended wkends i want sch to close down omg i'm evil i want to understand csc i want to understand physics i need to get csc into my head i want to stay at home i don't want school five days of school seem super long while 2 days of wkends seem super short yet one week passes by so quickly omg everything is so ironic and relative that it's getting disgusting everyday omg i'm addicted to the word disgusting i'm hyperventilating

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE ;D

2009-07-21T22:48:00.004+08:00

just got back from watching half blood prince with cousins haix and it's such a pity we didn't get to take any photos or anything haix

but anywayys half blood prince yayys i just discovered that the movie didn't really mention much abt half blood prince haix i expected some form of explanation or sth but oh wells oh wells i shall go read the book or sth and yepps it's quite hard to squeeze so many stuffs into a 2 and half hr movie so hmms

but anywayys awnnns it's sadddd it feels super sadd at the end haix harry potter's first few books always end with those kind of happy happy endings and even thought there seems to be like trouble ahead we know that it's only gng to happen in the future so all in all they are happy books but from the goblet of fire onwards people are dying it feels like war and stuffs when everyone is like living in this kind of fear and apprehension and all those bad stuffs which you aren't really supposed to be feeling in these kind of books but haix still the first thing this kind of stuffs remind me is war and that's bad war is not nice haix people die and all those close ppl those ppl whom you think are infallible those powerful ppl somehow they are not as strong and undefeatable as they seem somehow they are still vulnerable which makes everything even sadder haix haix and when the burrow was burnt omg that affected me the most i think maybe more than when dumbledore died haixx

i decided watching movies in the cinemas is nice got a lot of feel even though it's not that comfortable plus you can laugh and sit or do any unglam stuffs but nobody wld do cos it's all in the dark yays

i feel like watching it a second time awns awns awns

i decided i like wearing jackets as well nice yays jackets and short skirts (:

i can't wait for the last one it's gng to be super super exciting and i don't know maybe kind of sad haix

2009-07-17T22:51:00.001+08:00

haix and i start to miss ny again

2009-07-16T21:13:00.004+08:00

whahhahs like what chenning said talking is therapeutic yayys yayys whahhas and i just realised shopping is very therapeutic as well yayyys whahhas window shopping helps as well and gng online and looking at all those nice stuffs feels very good lalalas (; kayys maybe not as good as buying them but still yayys oh manns shopping shopping shoppingggg whahahhas :D

somehow shopping alone or with family seems the best haix i guess shopping with ppl makes me feel super zi bei so forget it shopping is supposed to be therapeutic for me yeppos

WHAHAHS PIP DRAW IS FUNNEHH :D

2009-07-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

i think school's really making me feel super lousy super saddening super demoralising where did all my optimism go or do i even have that before

i can't seem to find the kind of joy i get when i was in primary sch or secondary sch the kind of anticipation i get the day before school reopens i once looked forward to school that was super long ago and now i just feel like escaping clamming myself up staying at home away from school

i think e learnings were actually marking days for teachers why can't just they let us off and declare those days as marking days instead

haix i was actually quite surprised at the teachers' marking speed i didn't want to get them back so fast i just wanted to enjoy a few more days of happiness or whatever you called it not like this giving me blows and blows after blows

nothing is going well at all nothing

2009-07-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

haix it's just going to be one rejection after another isn't it

2009-07-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

I think I should use this blog to practise the good use of English. Complete with punctuations. Including commas. And fullstops. (OMG THAT LOOKED DISGUSTING!)

The thing about buying presents for people is that I would want those presents for myself in the end. Which gets me no where at all.

(THE FULLSTOPS LOOK SUPER DISGUSTING BLEHHS)

I think shopping trips are very fun and exciting. Especially with family. Okay, now come to think of it, maybe shopping alone is not bad after all. Yet, I think i changed for the worst after all these shopping trips which is terrible. For example, I will start to go on and on about buying a lot a lot of stuffs, and spend a lot a lot of money like nobody's business. Terrible.

I like how Sophie Kinsella writes her books. The characters, those dialogues, and how the protagonist thinks. They are all very hilarious and amusing, which make me just want to laugh and keep on reading.

There, I did it yays! The fullstops and all the punctuation still look terribly disgusting.

2009-07-04T00:53:00.002+08:00

it feels just like before when you are supposed to feel happy and start to make plans about having so much fun going out with people doing random stuffs you realise that there's no one to do it with you i hate to admit but everytime i feel like i'm getting pushed away i feel rejected i feel like i did the wrong thing approaching ppl and then getting rejected not like they do it deliberately or directly or anything but it just hurts sometimes i feel that i'm thinking too much being oversensitive but i just can't help it i feel like clamming myself up and just stay at home everyday delete msn dao facebook disable tagboard block out the entire outside world everything's repeating itself again i realise i window shop on my own very often which is not sth i particularly like it feels embarrassing somehow esp the eating on my own part it's disgusting i wonder why i'm so concerned about all these stupid stuffs but i just am stupid disgusting person and i wandered into the library and started thinking about what is love i shall go buy can you keep a secret someday cos it's the first english book which made me laugh and i think the shopaholic series is very amusing love is a very odd thing which i can't seem to fathom i realise if i'm going to be what i said i'm going to be i have to get used to this kind of thing now in future there'll be no one alr i'll be all alone again my sister said she doesn't want to get married in future i don't know what to think she said she's going to move in with me and my family and i laugh this whole thing is filled with broken english i can't seem to speak english nowadays loser maybe we'll end up being just the two of us but i wonder if i can stand living with her who hits my head all the time and bully me instead i have to get used to all this it's getting so bad now i wonder how i would survive in future i miss you i realise if i were older then maybe i would be more mature in my thinking i would express my love more openly i can understand myself better i realise when i say i hate you it really means i hate you shouting at me but not you so from now on whenever i have this kind of hate i'd know it's only temporary and it's just cos i feel irritated and super pissed half blood's prince opening soon i still haven't read the book yet i shd seriously go read it i realise i'm a very loserish person who's nvr received those convetional gifts before conventional gifts being those stuffs you see in minitoons actioncity blah blah like soft toys or breaddough or those common stuffs which you think is too common for someone else yet it's actually sth i want to have actually i wonder if anyone really does know me at all i still think i'm the one who knows myself the best and when you say you'd rather not know the real me somehow it saddens me it's like you don't want to know me at all it's like if you'd seen the real me you would be put off that you'd shun away or sth i don't know it just feels bad my sister says i swoon over every guy i see i like the kind of nice nice easy easy feeling i feel when i'm with my family where i can just openly truthfully express my feelings without the need for any pretense or cover up or anything i want to try the milo malt macflurry someday when i was looking at my juniors' photos i really start to miss ny i decided i don't really like hc i know i'm not cut out for leadership roles cos i'm super irresponsible i want to go out but i can't find ppl to go out with i miss those times when i have fixed friends and all but i realise another thing that's wrong with me is that i have this overly possesive kind of attitude i'm super crazy i want to go usa stupid swine flu it's not fair if they're going to cancel the end of year trip i don't think i'm gng to have any future at all i don't even know what i'm gng to do and you are right i won't be even getting any scholarships cos i'm super lousy my results are lousy enough and even if my results can make it my portfolio can't so i'm gng to just stay on in spore anyway i wonder what my whole life is about i don't seem to have a goal or anything and then i start to think about death sometimes it feels super close or sth somehow and i would start to think why bother working so hard for since we are all gng to die in the end and that's the end of it i don't know choy i like disneyland a lot even though you said it's super childish i like those kind of warm and fuzzy kind of feeling yays i like i want to spend the entire week in disneyland so i can play on all the games including those exciting ones and take photos with so many diff characters i want to spend two weeks in disneyworld cos i think it's bigger and i'd probably need more time i want to tour the airport one day i think i like to start imagining and fantasizing a lot of things which aren't going to come true at all and so i'd try to drive all these thoughts away but i can't so in the end i'd just tell myself it's ohkay cos it's only just some fantasy and it won't true so just enjoy the fantasy and all i can be happy in my own imagined world instead i think i feel jealous all the time jealous about a lot of things and envy i hate myself i'm a horrible person i wouldn't want to make friends with myself that's super disgusting i feel like crying now but crying's super tiring i'm a super lousy person cos i cry super easily which is disgusting i don't rlly like it when ppl try to point out my sort of good points cos evidently they are not good points either they are not good qualities or they are just not good enough it's super disgusting i'm super disgusting one day i should really just disappear and go lead my loner life and cut off all contact with everyone yes one day i should really do that nobody would care anywhere as i type this i find myself becoming even more disgusted with myself disgusting lousy person who shouldn't even exist in the first place i'm sorry

2009-07-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

YAYYYS I SURVIVED BLOCKS ;D

BLOCKS END TODAY FOR US YAYYS :D WHAHHAS I'M GLOATING COS THERE'S NO TESTS FOR ME TMR YAYYS NICE FEELING HOHOS ;D

ehh i realise a lot of people's birthdays are coming up in jul very interesting hohos ehh and i feel like going out now yayyys i feel like doing random stuffs lalalas :D whahahs and zhangdongliang's new songs are hehhs :D

haix i forgot what i wanted to blog le hohos yayys feel quite happy now and feel like doing a lot of things whahhhas even though math and phy were quite screwed blahhs i'm incoherent again hmms

LALALAS :D

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2009-06-29T22:16:00.004+08:00

blocks

haix csc plus gp today YAY I SURVIVED 6H OF WRITING TODAY! :D whahahs sitting through 3hr of csc is wow and somehow you just feel tired of this whole thing and hoping for it to end quickly haix odd odd de mao dun de xin li ahhh

sometimes csc gives me a nice nice feel sth like physics when you can just ramble abt it and no one would understand it feels like some kind of special language yayys i like

i nvr knew a blk test day would be so long it feels like a normal school day hmms

and tmr's econs! haix i'm alr like slacking and losing the exam mood alr haix haix

csc :D i still cannot imagine i'm gng to take it as one of my a level exam topics nxt yr it's rather traumatising hmms i don't know

东方之珠让我不禁会心一笑看东方之珠让我好开心耶老歌很好听呀 ;D

lalalas :D DOLLY CURLS! :D

2009-06-26T00:44:00.003+08:00

it's getting harder to talk it's like we don't have this common topic common experience alr haix i just can't seem to blend in again everything is just changing i just can't seem to talk to say much anymore and what's worse is that you all were once ppl whom i can speak super at ease with haix

eating durians everyday is wow super wow you just seem to be able to eat durians like non-stop throughout the day yays

time is running out my mind shouldn't keep wandering to other random stuffs haix

i feel so excited about christmas wahhahs i am like super looking forward to christmas yays :D

2009-06-24T10:55:00.002+08:00

haix this is so random i also want to do the recounting thing like what everyone else does looks so fun haix but i realise i don't have much to reocunt fo everyday haix the last wk is meant for me to mug mug mug mug hard but i don't think i've mugged hard enough haix and with sch not extending holidays i'm super worried abt my blocks haix haix haix oh and ytd we almost did sth crazy hohos at least it's crazy to me i was like i'm super hungry and was reading a book which mentioned sth abt pizza and then i was like yuting let's order pizza hohos and we were checking the pizza hut web and there's this 2 for 19.90 bucks thing and i was like yay yays pizza and then we checked out the pizzas there's this shroom thing hohos even better cos eating vegetarian that day what so yepps and we were abt to call and and order and all but haix the person said they can only deliver it after one hr so i was like haix cannot larhh but luckyy nvr buy larhh my mom's reaction towards us buying pizza was quite big hmms very scary haix ohh and watched sth on nat geog channel abt vampires ohhh quite interesting i start to think nat geog is quite interesting alr hohos actually documentaries are rather interesting it's just that i don't rlly want to sit and watch for a very long time lorhh haix no time hohos yepps random book dracula:sense or nonsense yepps i might want to read it in the future ohh random qn if we were walking up a hill will the direction of friction be acting downwards or upwards haix super stressed now my basics super lousy haix haix and my mom's blaming all this to huangcheng in the first 3 mths haix but i seriously think my basics is alr super lousy back when i'm in sec 3 so haix haix kayys mug mug mug mug mug :[

2009-06-17T20:36:00.002+08:00

wahahhahs group photos first bahhh haiz uploading photos on blogger rather slow lehh and not very productive also haiz haiz hmms have to think of better ways to do this hmms

AND YAYYS JUMPSHOT! :D

2009-06-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

wahahhas once in a while recounting! :D

wed night we travelled to malaysia! :D my mom's super imba yayys :D and thur morning we reached our destination whahhas hard to explain where that place is whahahas so hmms anywayys nth much happened on wed i think we settled down ohhh jiujiu took me on a drive on the moterbike which is wow wow wow super fun but super scary made me see how dangerous riding motorbikes is esp those pillion riders haiz haiz realised a lot of things ahhh and then went to the hairdresser DOLLY CURLS! :D and nice ice blended strawberry bubble tea with choco chips whahhas and then dinner fried icecream! :D random spamming of photos went to pangkor jetty i think went back and i finished my csc hohohos :D

fri was a super long day but anywayys we went ard to caves and temples and all which is quite enriching whahas and we got to take photos hohos nice nice jumpshots and all my mom's rather imba at taking jumpshots as well whahhas so yepps at night we went to milan cafe which supposedly should have internet access and so we brought along laptops and a lot of stuffs and prepared to spend super long time there and we ordered fries and onion rings and drinks and in the end there's no internet access haiz haiz cheat our feelings yuting kept talking abt her classmates larhh which is super funnehh lorhh whahhahs her impersonations and all whahhahas and she made it seem so easy and all and it reminded me of lower sec when i was super lousy and muggerish haiz haiz xian mu xian mu

sat we went shopping whahhas yayys got shou huo nice nice :D super hot day whahahs went the jetty again ate kfc and then went back slacked ard went to eat dinner went back and watched teevee boys over flowers! :D while the adults went to do their adults' stuffs yeppps yepps and so whahahs lalalas nice nice yepps

sun morn haiz stomachache larhh tskk didn't get to go market haiz haiz set back home in the afternoon at abt one yepps and just reached home hohos :D

yayys nice nice i want to go again very fun hohos :D and super slack and relaxed and all supposedly have to do hw but haiz haiz didn't achieve much whahhas time with cousins was super entertaining yayys so lalalas :D photos photos nxt time very tired ahhh you all ahh should go get facebook so i can tag you all what haiz haiz :D

2009-06-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

whahhahas i ate my first oreo mcflurry this yr! :D and since then i've been eating it a lot a lot of times and so somehow i've lost that kind of wow feel about it and i will start to grow sick eating it but all in all it's super nice whahhahs the oreo and the white white icecream thing hehhs but i wonder why we need the lid thing and why the spoon is shaped so funnily whahahs

anywayyys today i bought my sister oreo mcflurry whahahs cos i don't remember her ever eating it as well and once she was playing with her oreo and crushing it into pieces and she was telling me how nice it was and so i told her oreo mcflurry also has those kinds of bits and so i promised her i'd treat her since i didn't want her to have such a deprived childhood like me whahhahs kayys so yayys i bought her oreo mcflurry today and she said she seemed to have eaten that before so i was =.= dots even she has eaten oreo mcflurry before larhh cheat my feelings dots but still whahas she's like rather happy abt her oreo mcflurry so whahhas and this is when i'd finally feel like an older sister a sister who'd treat her to stuffs and make her happy whahhas yayys :D

i can say i'm a super lousy older sister larhh for one thing i don't behave like an older sister haiz and the only interactions we have is fighting bullying smacking each other haiz and i think i always make her cry lorhh hmms so whahhas

haiz on the other hand my sister has super lousy attitude so hmms blahhs shan't comment on that

lalalas all in all somehow i sort of like the feeling of being an elder sister bahh fetching her from sch bringing her to tuition sometimes bringing her to libraries buying her stuffs to eat bubble tea to drink whahhas she's a nice sister actually and to be honest she does take care of more than i take care of her so whahhahs

lalalas and so in the end i'd feel like the younger one she'll get rather offended by that cos she thought i was teasing her about her whahhas but in actual fact i was actually referring to other stuffs so whahhas

maybe someday when she gets older have more confidence become less irritating i'd bring her window shopping whahahas or we can watch comedies together and we'll laugh super unglamly and maybe when we get even older we can go travel together and i'd pull her to all those amusement parks

speaking of amusement parks whahahs that is where i take care of her the most whahhas

and i like her calling me jie jie sounds very qin qie and nice :D <3phuajue

2009-06-08T00:37:00.001+08:00

haiz writing essays remind me of writing ih essays and la essays last time and i start to miss everything again haiz

2009-06-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

my life is super screwed now it just doesn't go as what we've planned does it haiz i just feel like drawing sad faces on everything i see

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2009-06-02T21:24:00.001+08:00

csc outdoor trip today was hehhs (: it's always during this kind of trips that i can break off and i can make a lot of noise yayys yayyys nice nice i like (((: the distinction was super obvious today but whahas so what who cares i like yayys and whahhas scandals scandals everybody hohos :D

2009-06-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

OMGGGGG WHAHHAHS I JUST SAW A MOUSE IN MY HOUSE WHAHHAHAS IT GOT TRAPPED I THINK COS I THINK THERE'S SOME BAD SMELL IN THE KITCHEN OR STH SMELLS LIKE URINE SO MY AH MAHH WENT TO PUT SOME FORM OF TRAP AND THEN IT GOT TRAPPED WHAHHAHHAS OMGGGGG SO EXCITINGGG AND SCARYY HOHOHS THE MOUSE RATHER CUTE BLAHHHS AND IT KEPT MAKING A LOT SQUEAKS AND BITING OFF THE CARDBOARD AND STUFFS HAIZ HAIZ HAO SCARYYY BUT IT'S QUITE KE LIAN LARHH HAIZ MY MUMMY JUST BROUGHT IT OUT OF THE HOUSE WOW WOW SO YONG GAN I ALSO WANT TO BE LIKE THAT BUT HAIZ VERY SCARY WHAHAHHS BUT IN CONCLUSION A MOUSE IN THE KITCHEN LEHHH OMGGGGGGG

2009-06-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

haiz is this how bored to tears feel like haiz it's like i feel like crying larhh even though there's nothing for me to cry about haiz i want to talk larhh but no one to talk to haiz i'm supposed to keep myself super busy so that i won't be distracted and do random stuffs but tskkk oh manns sheesh i feel like there's not much time left le oh manns haiz bored bored bored i want to talk siannn shall go read some cheesy book or sth haiz haiz haiz

2009-05-29T19:36:00.003+08:00

i remembered i wanted to blog about something but somehow after the nap the feeling's not as strong and i sort of forgot what i wanted to say le

it's friday last day of term 2 tomorrow will be the start of holidays omg it feels so fast somehow i nvr realised that term 1 was over then likewise it doesn't feel that nxt term's going to be term 3 it sounds super faraway but oh wells it's coming and then it'll be sept hols then preparation for promos then term 4 then j2 hopefully

i think i'm super noisy again today super super it's the last day so haiz what do you expect

i miss 4o8'08 again it's always like this when i'm super super noisy i'll think of 408 again and think of how they are always so tolerant so accepting so understanding so nice about the noise i make i'm thankful super super thankful it pisses people off i know the noise i made sorry yet thank you thank you thank you i can never find that same feeling now people either just dao or just shush me they don't do it the way like you all do ohh manns this is saddening haiz i don't know i miss the attention i get last time i miss having table buddehhs i miss sitting tgt in the canteen and eating tgt and talking stuffs i miss talking super loudly in the canteen i miss ppl commenting abt weird food i bring to school i miss eating unglamly sitting unglamly i miss whining without ppl telling me to stop whining i miss groupmates like xx eyu cindy when we could just hit it off so well and all i miss the feeling when i can just be myself i miss those times when i don't have to drift off so much when i can just find ppl in my class to talk to i miss all of you

i never thought that i'd miss ny so much when everyone's just everyone then but we all have changed it's not the same anymore people are moving on yet i'm still stuck in that past stubbornly remaining at the same spot being the same me holding on to whatever memory i have looking at how everyone's moving on i wish they could stop or rather i wish i could just move on

somehow jc made me have that kind of touched feeling that power of friendship that can do wonders and it's the first time i cried because i'm touched by you all thankful for always being there thankful that you all cared

like i said i never knew that i whine in ny and i never knew i could whine but i know i didn't whine that much so why can't i just stop and change and move on and i don't know do something whine inwardly or what

wearing my hot pink class tee now i've nvr worn it for a long time alr i realise haiz

PROUD TO BE DDIAO PROUDER TO BE EIGHT-XTRAORDINARY

i miss youuuu

2009-05-25T23:19:00.005+08:00

somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes,

i fell in love...

whahahas nice cute little love quote from the quiz on facebook yayys yayys sweet :D

2009-05-24T15:44:00.003+08:00

WHAHAHAHS YAYYS YAYYS YESTERDAY WAS WE SING OUR SONGS LALALAS YAYYS YAYYYS I NVR THOUGHT I COULD SING SONGS SO LOUDLY LALALAS YAYYS SUPER SHUANG HOHOS YAYYYS LALALAS AND YAYYS DINGTAIFUNG AND YAYYS I CONVENIENTLY FORGOT TO CHANGE OUT OF MY SHIRT HAIZ HAIZ

LALALAS :D

yet somehow i realise i couldn't rlly mix well with a lot of ppl i've nvr been able to communicate normally with seniors haiz and to peers to juniors as well haiz haiz so yepps and everyone alr found what they've wanted to do and are alr excelling in them and so when can i be like that as well haiz haiz

blahhhhs still on a happie note SINGING SUPER LOUDLY IS VERY TONG KUAI! LALALAS and yayyys i THINK i finally improved in my sleeping in class habit le hohos another one more week to go lalalas :D:D

2009-05-21T20:32:00.001+08:00

i just realised adding someone as a friend accepting someone's friend requests and then becoming a friend on facebook doesn't mean anything it means nothing at all

and it took me so long to realise that

2009-05-20T17:55:00.002+08:00

YAYS :D

csm today was hmms feel super tired somehow don't know why haiz sian sian ny won the tchers' relay thing again hoho yayys hmms yepps nothing much milo truck yayys so hmms yarhh

i like window shopping a lot hohos so fun lalalas and yayys puma! pullandbear fox coach! mango! nike adidas guess fareastplaza! lalalas yepps lames lames super random yayys lizi and sweehoon let's do this again nxt yr after csm hohos :D

yayys daoju's gng partyworld someday hohos and 408 outing lalalas where where where ahhh

2009-05-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

YAYYS TODAY IS THE FIRST TIME I STAYED AWAKE THE WHOLE DAY FOR ALL OF MY LESSONS YAYYS EVEN CSC WITH LIANG HOHOS HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT YAYYS :D:D:D

haiz everybody is changing le should i change as well or sth changing seems to be a good idea haiz

2009-05-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

很多事都是无法强求的还是那句话但为什么我就是放不下

2009-05-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

somehow it feels that time passes super quickly so fast and it's alr a week it didn't feel like this last time now everyday just whizzes past and then life just keeps going on we all have to move on move on and move on awnnnns

2009-05-06T22:45:00.001+08:00

慢慢地周围的人都走了这叫单飞吧就这样大家都找到了属于他们的地方他们的那一片天我知道是我没这个能力也没有这个运气所以我应该乖乖地安安静静地不要再作无谓的挣扎了

2009-05-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

对不起突然之间好想念你如果你还在现在的我们都会不一样的吧会更好吧我好想感受有你在身边的感觉每天每天都在的感觉对不起从来没跟你说过一句我爱你

2009-05-03T14:38:00.001+08:00

在电视上看到道具这两个字不知怎的心就有一种很不一样的感觉曾经以为道具不是很重要曾经以为可能没了道具戏还是能继续演下去的但是我错了虽然只是短短的一段时间虽然扮演的角色可能很小但是谢谢谢谢你让我觉得我还是很重要的谢谢

迟早都必须习惯一个人的日子没有谁能够永远陪在谁的身边再多的保证再多的承诺到最后也就只是空谈而已还是早点习惯吧习惯了就会成自然的

2009-04-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

上星期的今天现在的我们还在VT吧那时候我们应该是在补道具吧还是在slack 我也忘记了只是这么快一个星期就已经过去了很快地它们都将成为回忆美好的回忆

本来还没有什么太大的感触只是突然察觉到一星期这么快地就过去了突然就有伤感的感觉吧好想念好想念那段时间在VT 那段每天都有开工的日子那段有黄城的日子好想就这样永远永远在梦里永远永远就待在这样一个黄城梦里永远永远就不要醒来永远永远就有那样幸福的感觉

今天车就把那些道具都载走了那边变得空荡荡的 amphi也是空荡荡的好不习惯这种空荡荡这样地空洞

我喜欢每天在学校到处都能看到黄城人的感觉好开心就好像我们都共同经历了些什么大家共同有了这么一段梦这么一个幸福的故事也喜欢看到道具的人好熟悉好开心想念你们真的很想念最近背着小道走来走去好开心好欣慰好骄傲听着它们就这样吵吵的好像会一直陪着我走感觉好好

喜欢黄城给我的那种幸福感觉好幸福好幸福谢谢

声音好烂好烂又是喊太多了吧好讨厌为什么就不能好好地安安静静地现在想想看起来吵吵闹闹地会不会就是一种伪装呢

2009-04-28T16:00:00.001+08:00

IT'S 4 IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE KAIGONG TIME BUT AWNNNS I JUST REACHED HOME IT'S ODD TO WEAR THE SCH UNI TODAY WHEN FOR THE LAST 5 DAYS YOU'VE BEEN WEARING BLACK TEES AND JEANS AND IT'S ODD TO TAKE A BUS HOME IN BROAD DAYLIGHT SIAN SIAN SIAN I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND THE MOTIVATION TO MUG AND ALL BLAHHHS

2009-04-27T18:12:00.003+08:00

就是这样幸福的感觉

<3 黄城夜韵 2009

<3 黄城道具！

2009-04-27T16:03:00.001+08:00

all of a sudden i feel like crying how do i go on from here

2009-04-23T00:19:00.002+08:00

it's our last night at amphi! and as zhiyi puts it it's gng to be a memorable night yayyys what's with the strong wind blowing the thunder flashing the trees swaying and ready to fall lalalas and rainingggg soon i sort of feel worried abt our flats whahahs but awnns our dear chiawu is gng to be the guardian angel and protect them so yayys ohh mannns it's such superb weather larhh and it's such a pity that i've got to leave early or sth

huangcheng tee looks ohh kayy whahahs it looks nice larh to me whhahas the idea was creative but maybe it just didn't turn out as nice as i expected but it's oh kayy waahhas i like it's got this modern yet cheena cheena feel yayys toot sunnnn

lalalas packing up feels like we are packing up for some kind of camp or a holiday or a trip somewhere it feels like travelling larhhh i want to flyy on a plane awnnns but anywayys it's like i'm anticipating for bump in just like i'm anticipating a trip and then i start to feel excited few days before like now cos i've not been listening in lessons liao and then it comes and yayyys we have fun yayys and then it passes by and goes off and we have to come back to reality come back to home come back to amphi come back to school and everything goes back to being the same again

and it's when i start to feel a bit sad which is odd cos i start to feel the shang gan ness before everything's started or sth but it's like when it's all over what will happen to our afternoons and all no more runs no more yong chai no more ban-ing dao ju no more getting high and cheering over and over again for our 15 sec

and it's never going to be the same again there'll never be the same daojuzu like this time again somehow someday everyone's going to move on and what we have left are just i don't know incomplete stuffs

it's saddening saddeninggg

but i still like the weather i still like to travel i still am looking forward to bumpin ohh yayys lalalas

2009-04-22T00:15:00.003+08:00

OHH YAYYYS NYCO GOLD WITH HONOURS! <3

LALALAS YAYYS YAYYS I SENSE THE FEELING AGAIN LALALAS WHEN THE RESULTS ARE ANNOUNCED OHH MANNNS I LIKE I MISS THE FEELING I MISS NYCO I MISS MRS EE I MISS PLAYING ERHU I MISS ALWAYS HAVING TO HAVE TAIFENG I MISS BEI PU I MISS THE TIMES WHEN WE ARE ALL SINGING THE PIECES I MISS THE FEEL I MISS NYCO <3

AWNNS AWNNNS AWNNNS I ESP MISS THE FEEL WHEN THERE ARE LIKE NO GUYS AROUND AWNNS THE XING FU DE GAN JUE WHEN THERE ARE NO GUYS AROUND I MISS GIRLS' SCHOOL I MISS NANYANG <3

OHH MANNNS I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH I EVEN MISS HONG ZI AND MAYBE YI GE YI GE LAI OH BLAHHHS :D;D:D

WELL DONE MANNN NYCO LOVES LOVES I FEEL GLAD I WAS PART OF NYCO AND I'M PROUD TO BE A PART ALWAYS ALWAYS YAYYYYS :D:D;D

<3<3<3

2009-04-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

anywayys zongcaier yesterday was rather fun and feels rather satisfying and all hmms it was a rather hot day and the moving of props part was kind of hmms tiring and all but still yayys yayys i want to have a ride on the truck as well awnns but whhahas lalalas high high high

blahhs and adam food centre doesn't have mi gua xi mu lu so saddening so it's only at bukit timah food centre awnns

rather looking forward to the coming week whahahhs yayyys yayys vt awnns seniors made it sound super fun in there so yayys lalalas

and it's saddening to know that sort of feel rather affected i'll miss you awnnns huangcheng doesn't seem that complete without you anymore awnnns

lalalas yayyyys huangchengggg

all the syfs are coming up soon so yayys yayys MUSIC FROM THE HEART! <3

AND YAYYS YAYYS PUT IN OUR HEARTS FOR HUANGCHENG AS WELL yayys like gekyong puts it it's this kind of feeling yarhh that sense of belonging that sense of involvement to know that you are a part to have that common thing to high together and all

yepps yepps i'm still trying to grasp that

2009-04-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

wahhahas maybe i do really have athazagoraphobia hmms which according to some website it's defined as the fear of or strong reaction to forgetting being ignored or generally anything dealing with the idea of forgetfulness hmms maybe not as extreme but blahhs i don't like to be dao-ed and ostracized so yepps and i hate ppl who dao lousyyy lousyyy

blahhhs sometimes or maybe there are a lot of instances when i feel super useless it's like even i'm there i can't help with or do anything that kind of feel

whahahs and i'm not emo-ing lalalas this is just being ddiao ddiao and more ddiao whahahaas

2009-04-16T22:48:00.003+08:00

whahahs i seem so free cos i've been like blogging everydayy lames lames blahhs today must be one of the rare nights we get to go home so early so hmms it's coming soon everyone's like breaking down everywhere super scary i wonder why i don't feel the stress blahhs i just feel like playing all the time blahhs super lousy and yayys i like the ju more hmms hun sha jia zi feels heavier and mannequin doesn't look as cute anymore awnns i feel super random now and i'm like super overly sensitive and such which is so saddening yepps yepps lalalas i'm crapping hohos

2009-04-15T23:41:00.001+08:00

i feel guilty for always offending ppl and talking in that super lousy attitude and tone it's super rude and i think i'm like a super lousy person i try to prevent myself from doing all kinds of stupid things and just be ddiao yet when my randomness and loudness take over it's like i'm doing all the pissifying things all over again sorry ppl

i need to be ddiao ddiao ddiao blahhhs i've been telling myself this for like so many times since sec3 yet i'm not improving at all blahhs

and honestly speaking i never realise i whine till i came to jc i never realise i was whining and whining so much and i never thought i could whine in the first place blahhhs

i feel like super sorry to everyone and a lot of other ppl awnns

tskk winnie super not supportive blahhs and yayys feli blahs blahs i'm being random again blahhs blahhhs

2009-04-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

it was one of the latest nights we've had and everyone was like super sian and super not high and stuffs but still it had been a nice ending yayys 15 sec whahahs that made us high lalalas and we did it twice yayyys super nice end to the super long night lalalas

and that's the kind of feeling i've always wanted that sense of belonging and involvement that i've been part of the team who've made the 15 sec possible thank you everyone (:

2009-04-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

whahahs i knew this is going to be never ending but still i cannot resist the urge to reply tskk

jaime: whahaahas lames lames what's with the pouncinggg whahha i bet there'll be a lot of short and cute guys around lorhh since most guys are rather short whahahs so it should not be that difficult whahhas i still don't understand why you are so into short guyys whahhas tskk tskk whahahs at least i have some analogy thing behind my quiet ppl thing whahahs odd odd jaime lalalas wahahhs and i never forcefully hug my mannequin lorhh i am very gentle and rou with her whahhas and i fu3 mo1 her de lehh awnnns i feel like giving her some feng1 xiong1 thing so that she'll become more shapely awnnns

lalalas jaime we are flooding this place larhhh whahahs lalalas yayyys loves loves

2009-04-12T12:02:00.003+08:00

wahahhas this is going to be never ending but still

jaime: whahahhas you pure and innocent more like i'm the pure and innocent one lorhhh whahahas and who knows when you'll find new ecs again since now there are so many ppl around who most probably fit your criteria whahhas speaking of criteria i realise i'm more inclined to quiet ppl lehhh whahahs that's so odd whahahs and soon jaime i'll see more scandals between you and your ecs ahhhh and maybe HIM as well since HE added you on msn and such aiyarhh he's most probably waiting for a chance to talk to you oh whahahas and why is my mannequin scandalous and she's not inanimate she moves (inanimate means not moving right?) hmms but anywayys yepps she rolls around kayys whahahs and i've never been able to hug her this recently and oh btw did you realise her boobs became smaller and droopier so saddd right awnnns and you and pam are so a pair larhh didn't you hear what the rest were saying when we were walking to kap awnnnns how could you be so oblivious awnnns wahhas and yepps yepps you should feel guilty you don't even remember that we worked on the sec ones orientation thing tgt tskkk and whahahs what fazhan harhh don't know what you're saying lehhhs wahahhas and ohh btw why are up so early againnnn i never knew you were such a morning person ohh wow i thought you are the nocturnal kind so you can go ahwoo ahwoo in the night hmms whahahs kayys see this is such a long reply blahhs see you tmr larhh tskk tskk and we can maybe talk more whahhahs yayyys

2009-04-12T01:12:00.002+08:00

yayys i like tag replies a lot and i like to tag reply in a long long post cos i've got so much to reply and tell you all whahas yayys yayyys whahahs and i decided against using caps cos for once i feel lazy to go press the cap locks key whahahs

jaime: aiyorhhh jaime wo men de ju li hai shi yue lai yue yuan awnnns zhen shi de how could you only think abt your ecs and pamela awnnns see even ppl think that you and pamela are a pair and now i'm ostracized awnns i feel saddd to think we've known each other for 4 yrs and the only conversations we made is when you asked me abt what bar we are at you should be feeling guilty tskkk jaimeeee whahahas and and and jaime see now you sound super scandalous le larhh tskk tskk whahhas and i don't understand what you mean by fa zhan worhh i thought you are the one who wanted fazhan with your ahem ecs whahahs and i'm not having an affair with my mannequin lorhh we were very guang ming zheng da whhahas but now my mannequin is like super nice now with a super nice stand as well and i've been touching my mannequin cos i want to shape her more can wahahhs but she feels fatter now and her boobs are drooping i'm saddd i wonder if she'll abandon me awnnns but it's oh kay i've still got my hun sha jia zi with all the nice and obiang hun shas ohh yayyys whahahhas

gekyong: whahahas gekyonggg who's the one being scandalous here lorhhh tskk tskk thinks about him and your bananas ohh mannns oh wow i would love to see some nice nice fazhan between you two worhhh and i know you like green bananas whahahs and how could you so not zhong shi my mannequin she just doesn't have a heart to have heart to heart talks with me lorhh and she moves whahahs my mannequin rolls around on wheels she is just being lazy larhhh whahahhahs

CINDY: whahahas cindyyy you are hereeeeee awnnns and yepps yepps you are always appearing at tagboards at appropriate times whahahas *thinks of eyu's tagboard* whahhahas and you two are dan-fei-ing tskk me and xx are sadddd awnnns

weijing: whahahas what's with what the lorhhh whahahs i feel the sudden urge to change back what whahhas i miss blogspot larhh and the tagboard lorhhh whahahahs cos everyone's having tagboards so i feel like having one as well whahas and my blogskin is nice nice nice right right right whahahaas yayyys

YUWEN(: whahahas yayys i'm back cos i feel like having a tagboard and to top it off i found a nice blogskin whahahahs was super proud and happy whahahas and yepps blogger feels nicer for the time being but livejournal's still idiot proof larhh whahahas

baifeng: whahahahs i bet you'd have more fazhan larh you and don't know who larhhh whahahs super fishy and suspicious whahhahs *looks on with a knowing look* whahhahs and somehow you don't sound like yourself at all are you sure you are yourself whahahas and yayyys my blogskin's nice whhahahs it feels like me lalalas and i realise there're moving stuffs only after you mentioned it but still whahhahs it's nice cos it's bright and cheery and yayys it feels like me i feel like talk talk -ing whahahas

xD: whahahhs i know who you are lehhh yayyys i feel like shouting your name out here whahahhas but yepps yepp i shall respect your privacy whahhahs and yayys thanks thanks you tagged whahahs and how could you not know how to tag whahhahs but anywayys go revamp your blog so i can go tag tag as well whahhas and don't be sad over ppl suaning whahhas in the first place they weren't lorhhh whahhahas yayyys

whahhas ohh yayys i love replying tags so cool and i realise i'm super pro at crapping whahhas i wonder what i could do in future with this skill i have awnns whahahahhas

2009-04-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

2009 is not starting off right it doesn't feel like a good year alr what's with all those failures and rejections waves and waves of those come crashing in and it's super discouraging and saddening surprisingly for some of those i can get over them rather easily at least easier than i've thought which is good yays but still one day it'll become all too much and i won't know what to do about them my mum's having scary premonitions that i'll fail my promos and retain which is like super scary cos i think maybe maybe it'll happen blahhs choy choy choy tskk tskk blahhs shall work harder and don't lag so much hmms and yepps avoid sleeping so much in classes blahhs yayys yayys work hard work hard jiayous

and and and huangcheng is feeling more and more like co which is something i suppose nice it's got this familiar feeling which i can really relate to and i can link a lot of things in huangcheng to co awnnns jaime i miss co alr hmms it's like zongcais lianpais and xiemus maybe all feel like dazu where everyone comes together and such and the yi ge yi ge lai part super familiar and a lot of other things as well like with gongyan drawing near it feels just like syf or concert is very near as well we are super behind time i know and i feel sorry and guilty about that but anywayys everyone's breaking down and pissed off and such and seniors are all coming back to peptalk us and all it feels all so much like co nyco is like that now i think the tension as syf draws super close everyone's having a hard time and all and we all get tensed up but i'll always remember co emphasizing about music from the heart which is the same for huangcheng as well cos like what a senior said what we give is not our 100% it's our heart so yayys yayys go huangcheng go nyco :D

ohh and it was the first time i ate oreo mcflurry yayys ppl say i've got no life which is rather true i suppose considering that i went coro and kap less than 5 times in my 4 yrs of ny school life and i've not had starbucks or island creamery before and i just had my first golden rooster meal today waahhas so yepps

and since jaime was talking about random ppl i realise i take notice of quiet ppl a lot blahhs kayys that's rather random oh yayys

and i thought i was lousy at dancing alr but i realise there are some ppl who are worse ohh wow that's like quite a surprise

whahahs i feel super random and i realise i mentioned jaime a lot of times whahahs come on man jaime feel proud i'll tell ppl that i only know one jaime who is jaime tan who is shuai as well cos she was from yqp yayys come on come feel happy yayys yayys

lalalas huangcheng an daoju whahas daoju is full of interesting ppl so interesting whahahs (((:

2009-04-08T09:03:00.001+08:00

LALALAS I LIKE XIEMU AND I WANT TO HAVE HEART-TO-HEART TALKS WITH THE MANNEQUINN YAYYYS LALALAS

2009-04-05T10:57:00.003+08:00

WHAHAHHAS JAIME COME COME I BET YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON TO READ MY BLOG YAYYS YAYYYS MUACKKS SHOU PENG YOU WHAHHAS AREN'T YOU HONOURED HMMS QUICK FEEL HONOURED LARH AND EVEN THOUGH WO MEN DE JU LI YUE LAI YUE YUAN LE BUT I'LL STILL LOVE YOU YEPPPS AWNNS JAIME MUACKS MUACKKKS I SHAN'T BE THE DIAN DENG PAO BETWEEN YOU AND HIM AWNNNS JIAYOUU I HOPE TO SEE SOME FA ZHAN BETWEEN YOU TWO AND I'LL THEN BE ABLE TO GO TO YOUR WEDDING DINNER AKA HIS WEDDING DINNER WHICH HE PROMISED TO INVITE ME AS WELL SO YAYYYS JIAYOUU JIAYOUUUUU AWNNNS THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU LEHH JAIME COME COME FEEL LOVEDD MUACKKKS MUACKKKKS JIAYOUU FOR HUANGCHENG AND WITH YOUR ECS AND WITH HIM LALALAS

2009-04-05T10:50:00.003+08:00

WHAHAHS I FEEL SUPER RANDOM SO YAYYS I CHANGED BACK TO BLOGGER AND I'M A NIAN4 JIU4 PERSON SO I RETAINED MY URL LALALAS SO COOL YAYYYS AND I LIKE THIS SKIN A LOT WHAHAHS SOUNDS LIKE ME SO YAYYYS LALALAS

2008-09-11T16:24:00.002+08:00

ddiaoloudlaughs.livejournal.com

2008-08-25T20:21:00.002+08:00

it's sad to see the olympics end no more today in beijing no more chasing after all the various events no more discussion about the various competitors no more craze about michael phelps no more getting together cheering for team singapore

that's sad

it's the first time i paid so close to olympics whahhaha i feel so happy to be so aware lalala (((:

and it arouses my interest to read newspapers more lalala (((:

it's a pity i want to watch all the matches hmphhhh

ahhh post olympics mortem blahhhs

shuai shuai people lalala

blahhhhs sadd I MISS OLYMPICS~~~~~

2008-07-19T20:30:00.002+08:00

YAY XI SONG YAY NYCO! (((: thankful for being a part thank you (((:

i am not exactly the most enthu co member and i don;t really feel excited before the concert
but when it's real concert time you really start to realise that it's coming to an end these 4 years and the concert oh man it's sad this is the concert after effects
i really felt the concert spirit going i'm thankful
and thankful for these past 4 years i get to have so many opportunities i'm not worthy for all of them yet i had the chance i'm thankful i'm sorry
i think i will miss this
i want to go for cca now have the sudden passion towards it hmm whahah maybe cos everything's over and i just want to catch whatever there's got left

thank you sorry have fun and enjoy

WHAHAHAH INFATUATION WITH SHUAI GES LALALA NYCO HAS SO MANY SHUAI GES WAHAHAHHAHA FAINTS LALALA ((((:

LALA NYCO THANK YOU FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE IT MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT CHOICE BUT THE NOT TOO PERFECT MAKES EVERYTHING SO WONDERFUL AND SO LOVELY THANK YOU YOU ARE LOVED NYCO I WILL MISS YOU IT'LL NEVER BE THE SAME THANK YOU

to think i've been count downing to this day yet when it really comes i really don't want to let go

2008-07-05T12:03:00.002+08:00

i realised i cry ever so easily blahhhs loser pui
waahhahahah

我宁愿你们永远都不要了解我
就一直记着我辛苦打造的这个形象就好了
不要破坏它嘛

2008-07-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

我只是想保护自己,不行吗?
我不想再失去了,我也不想再受到伤害
请你不要再提醒我自己是个这么悲哀、这么烂的人
你就让我用自己的方式小心小心地去走
我可能已经承受不了更多的挫折，
我已经很乐观地面对一切
我真的很想珍惜我仅存的家庭
我不要再失去了、我也不要再受伤
这是我保护自己的方式
因为除了家人，没有人会理你，没有人会管你，甚至没有人会想要去保护一个这么烂、这么坏的人
我是个很可怕的人，在背后偷偷做了些什么你们都不懂，所以我很烂
我不再单纯了
我都不晓得我这种烂人、这种没用的人、这种无情的人，为何会存在
你说的对，我是应该与世隔绝的，这样才不会害到别人，这样才能静静地消失
反正也没有人会理我我为什么要这么在乎

2008-07-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

i'm wonderful at stereotyping

no wonder i always fail my ih cos i keep generalising hmmmm

2008-07-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

ohohoh and playing badminton with yanxin is scary she's so bao li unlike me so gentle and wen rou lalala

and i'm pure and innocent too

whahah yanxin also knew her for four years le bahhh sort of knew herr at least i know her existence hmmm with her it's this kind of weird link sometimes we agree with each other we can be so so so adamant about our point of view that we will together violently object to other points of view and when we don't we always have big big fights and scary scary quarrels i always can;t win these battles and so i am always the one flaring up de and losing control and that we will have cold wars so ironic whahhah i can't even count how many cold wars we've had le

it all started with synergy camp at anderson bahh then china immersion and so on

weird weird de guan xi but i never imagine that i we could reach to this kind of relationship

2008-07-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

lala today is fun fair hohoho
and surprisingly i spent a lot lalala
last year le
this year like everything very screwed
whahaha not only us only and i thought we would be the worst
wahhhah ohh kayyy larhh we aren't so bad
ohh mann ying liao lorhhh four thirteen's haunted house once again made history
hmmm
lala but they really are good lala
and put in a lot of effort

lalala xi song xi song xi song
lalala and i finally am able to catch up in dazu
finally
lalala i want to feel the concert feel again

lalala and i realise i don't bond well with seniors and juniors
blahhhs lan lan cannot stand it
and i realise i have still got a long way to go
ny's got so many ppl
blahhhs what am i thinking about

sabbollec has a lot of biantai ppl
blahhhs pollute my pure and innocent mind
hmm tskk tskkk
biantai stuff can even appear in physics
wonderful man xiaoxi
and your more wonderful jing dian ming yan
blahhhs and tskk still openly say to everyone
powerful man

whahaha we always discuss ahem ahem stuff so so so discreetly lala
so han xu whahahah

how are we going to survive in jc hurhhhh
and that includes xiaoxi too
talk so little but everything that comes out of her sounds crappy
what "i will concentrate only on a levels'"
blahhhs lame si and plus you don;t even have to concentrate on them de lorhh
you can sleep through them all and then get what all As?
blahhhs xiaoxi your class tee should be "proud to be proud" instead hurhh

mannn why is this post all about xiaoxi
blahhhs whahaah i almost always have the same mindset as xx lalala
which i think is badd whahaha because of that doing projects with her is hmmm
lalala slack but definitely will get things done at the very last minute
whahaha BIO SIA lalala someone whom i feel at ease doing projects lalala
but she always gives me that stupid pissed off look always de lorhhh

knew so many people for four years already but very few whom i really got close to or really talk to at ease
the kind of feeling for which you can just talk crap and suan and arrow them
you can answer them instantly don;t even have to care much everything's like very natural like you don;t have to think think think or what before you reply or whatever
undescribable

i want to list them all out whaahha and currently i could only think of xiaoxi and lizi
and the first time i met them in sec 1 are through some silly stuff whahaha
i hope there's more cos it's sad to know that you may know so many people or in fact know them for four years already yet the people whom you can communicate to are those few

whahhahaah i'm so weird

lalala and people doesn't understand that DDIAO is a pun
if you are ddiao you will soon be forgotten just like erhu ddiao too long never play i'll feel odd odd de and so become more low key you will soon just disappear

that's how you are going to survive in jc

2008-07-03T21:25:00.001+08:00

我才发现原来讨论帅哥不是每个人的专利

i want to have an angmoh accenttttttt~~~~

2008-07-03T20:49:00.003+08:00

i was feeling super emo and was planning to fill another post with all those emo and rants blehhhhs

but i was happy cos i felt so loved yayyyy it feels like a friday and we sat down as a family and talked blahhhhs

it was so precious

i never open up to my peers hmmm so i never had this kind of feeling because they don't understand nobody understands and i will not let them understand

i'm such a scary person

2008-06-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

oh kayy whahah at least there is someone who's nice lalala
who says hi and would not walk past you
as if not to have known you before

wahhahha thanks for saying hi and not dao lalala

(:

2008-06-28T17:51:00.000+08:00

我没有在逃避我没有
我真的不行因为我真的没天分
不是我没有努力只是因为我的努力从来不会有任何成果
所以为什么努力呢?

2008-06-26T20:54:00.003+08:00

i suck big time

i really hate myself

and no wonder i can't feel belonged

yeppps i'm such a burden always hindering others the black sheep i won;t accept this kind of person into my group as well

loser larhhh why do i even exist

i shouldn't

so extra

2008-06-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

ohhh mannn i want to go back to socialising
i want my network
i sound so desperate
wondeful
i hate myself

ddiao diao ddiao ohh kayyyy
and to think
if i was not like this in lower sec
if i never drifted or swayed or go around socialising
yepps i would have fixed friends i would feel better
and i would not aim so high
wanting for more
i won't

and then i don't even have to be ddiao
just be like that
finish off my sec school jc blah blah
will i feel happier
blehhs i don't even know larhh
i hate it like this

i'm forever swaying drifting off skipping around and blahhs blahhs
and i never got stuck to anyone
it's not like in pri sch
i don't even have a clique ohh mann
that's sad

ohh mannn i'm easily affected by these stupid stuff
but it really affects me

CONCENTRATE

i don;t want to disappoint her
but i couldn't help it
i really want to quit

ohh mann i think too much
i'm dreading everything already
ohh mann everything looks scary to me

i'm so loser so easily affected lousy
easily hurt easily pissed
even worse i make people hurt more easily make them irritated more easily make them pissed more easily and then make then shun me more easily make them ostracize me more easily

and in the end i just end up as a loner
no matter how it looks like to other people

and i can just go home and spend my loner times alone

ohh yayyyyy

so wonderful

2008-06-23T19:10:00.001+08:00

i feel shunned
ohh kayyy i am shunned
yepps ostracized
i know i cannot help but keep talking about the same stuff
and yepps people might not like it
i know
i'm aware ohh kayyy
it's difficult
and i know i'm lousy at talking
sheesh

2008-06-22T19:00:00.001+08:00

and i really felt that these 2 weeks of cca was fulfilling

and i did appreciate cca practices yeppps whahaahhahah

2008-06-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

LALALA I JUST REALISED IT TOOK ME FIVE YEARS HEHHH
TO FINISH HARRY POTTER BOOK FIVE WHAHAHAHAHH

oh man so slow lalala

HMMMM (((:

2008-06-21T00:11:00.001+08:00

AHHHHH FINALLY FINALLLY GOT HARRY POTTER BOOK 6 LE WHAHAHHA I LAG LE HEN JIU YAYYY THANKS LARHH MUMMY HOHOHO

EEYER BUT IT'S NOT HARD COVER AND IT'S NOT THE KIND OF VERSION I WANT

BUT STILLL LALALA

YEPPS SO MUST REMEMBER BOOK 7 I SHOULD NOT COMPROMISE LE MUST BE HARD COVER AND THAT KIND OF NICE NICE CLASSY CLASSY VERSION I WANT YEPPPPS

MUST RECORD DOWN SO I WILL REMEMBER NXT TIME HMMM ((((:

LALA

2008-06-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

It's harder than it looks! Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own.Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names &/or objects, but nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.And Have Fun With It!!!

1) 4 LETTER WORD: RAIN
2) BOY NAME: RAYMOND
3) GIRL NAME: RAYDIANCE! ((((((: / ROSIE!
4) OCCUPATION: REPORTER / READER (?)
5) A COLOR: RAINBOW / RED / ROSE
6) SOMETHING YOU WEAR: the RIGHT pair of shoes /READING GLASSES?
7) BEVERAGE: RIBENA! ((((: / ROSE DRINK
8) FOOD: ROASTED CHICKEN / RAISINS!
9) SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: ROSE-FLAVOURED TOOTHPASTE?
10) A PLACE: a ROMANTIC place (((:
11) REASON FOR BEING LATE: RUSHING HOMEWORK ? (blehhs)

SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: RANDOM! /RAHHHS (((:

hehhh so interesting lala (((:

2008-06-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

10 quirky facts about kissing

By Laura Schaefer Think you know a thing or two about kissing? You probably do. But the facts below are so off the beaten path, we’ll bet you don’t know them all—and they could come in handy. Not only could they provide some steamy “Did you know…?” chit chat, but they’ll help you see all the benefits a satisfying lip lock can bring into your life. Happy smooching!

1. Two out of every three couples turn their heads to the right when they kiss.

2. A simple peck uses two muscles; a passionate kiss, on the other hand, uses all 34 muscles in your face. Now that’s a rigorous workout!

3. Like fingerprints or snowflakes, no two lip impressions are alike.

4. Kissing is good for what ails you. Research shows that the act of smooching improves our skin, helps circulation, prevents tooth decay, and can even relieve headaches.

5. The average person spends 336 hours of his or her life kissing.

6. Ever wonder how an “X” came to represent a kiss? Starting in the Middle Ages, people who could not read used an X as a signature. They would kiss this mark as a sign of sincerity. Eventually, the X came to represent the kiss itself.

7. Talk about a rush! Kissing releases the same neurotransmitters in our brains as parachuting, bungee jumping, and running.

8. The average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married.

9. Men who kiss their partners before leaving for work average higher incomes than those who don’t.

10. The longest kiss in movie history was between Jane Wyman and Regis Tommey in the 1941 film, You’re in the Army Now. It lasted 3 minutes and 5 seconds. So if you’ve beaten that record, it’s time to celebrate!

Laura Schaefer is the author of Man with Farm Seeks Woman with Tractor: The Best and Worst Personal Ads of All Time.

(((((((: HEHHHHHHH

2008-06-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

以前我曾经说过高层虽然看似很累、很忙（可能也很痛苦吧），但是其中一起走过的路、那段过程他们回顾时也会很开心可能也会庆幸自己曾经有过这样的时光曾经是高层

高层他们会获得很多快乐朋友经验很多很多吧只是时间会不会就比较少了自由也比较少了呢?

可能会说只要会安排时间就什么都oh kay 了

难怪我做不了高层

因为我安排时间的能力真的超烂

记得我也曾经说过高层很恐怖

曾经曾经我还在埋怨为什么高层就不能在亲切一点还是多笑笑还是什么的就是不要这么dao

但逐渐逐渐连不是高层的我都了解这是很难做到的吧

要做到不凶但又会有人依你我觉得很了不起永远笑笑的会有人听吗

可能会有吧那么那些高层太厉害了因为他们真正的得到了大家的尊重所以大家才会听他们的吧

这么厉害也难怪我不是高层了

所以从此我应该更坦然面对这些失落既然知道不可能就不要抱希望知道吧因为伤心时是没有人会同情你的哟

不用太在乎这些吧只是有时真的觉得自己很失败

做高层应该是很过瘾的吧

突然对高层有这么多的感悟啊还是这些都是压抑了很久想说的话呢没有人能了解吧

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耶~读了《甜酸》终于让我了解饶雪漫的威力了耶 ~

就这样她赢了希望其他的书不会大同小异呵（（（（：

2008-06-16T20:04:00.002+08:00

YAYY YAYYYY I DISCOVERED YAN YA LUN LOOKS NICE TOO WHAHAHHA SO AMUSING LALALA

YAYYYYY AND WANG DONG CHENG TOO WHAHAHHAH

AND OF COURSE CHEN YI RU IS STILL SO AMUSING WAHAHHAHAAAHAAHA

WU ZUN HMMM KAYY LARHHH SHUN YAN NEHHH

LALALA YAN YA LUN WAAAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH HOHOHO

AHHHHH I'M STILL HIGHH YAYYY NESS LALALA

E ZUO JU 2 WEN NYEHHHHH WAHAHAHHAHAH LALALA

YAYYY KAYY LARHHH FEI LUN HAI WHAHAHHAH

YING LIAO LORHHH

HEHHHHHH WAHAHAHAHHAHAHA LALALALALALALA (((((((:

2008-06-15T10:34:00.000+08:00

福娃 FRIENDLIES! [:

2008-06-13T22:58:00.003+08:00

and finally it's the last year le and so finally we get to sit in in interviews hmmm
it's so like last time and yes from this we can tell the problem with co still exists
hmm so why stop me from going off to socialise with other sections

arghhhh and so suayy lost two books le larhhh hmphh
eeyer never keep track of what books i sent for tuo yun now i also not sure le larhhhh blahhhhs

SADDDO ~~~~~

ahhhh ahhhh ahhhhh

hmmm nothing much to say le i'm becoming random liao siao siao

AHHHH HEHHH I WANT HARRY POTTER BOOK SIX LEHHH LALALA (((:

hmmmm

2008-06-09T16:29:00.001+08:00

YAYYY YAYYY YAYYYYY I FINALLY FINISHED HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF PHOENIX TODAYYY (YEPPS AT ELEVEN IN THE MORNING)

WHAHAHHAHAH FINALLY LALALA AFTER LIKE SO MANY YEARS HMMM

SO YEPPS BACK TO STUDYING LE WHAHAHHAHAH

I WANT MY HARRY POTTER BOOK 6 LEHHHHH HMMMMM WAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

AND THEN WHEN I'VE FINALLY GOT MY HANDS ONTO BOOK 6 I WILL WAIT UNTIL LIKE AFTER TWO YEARS TO FINALLY FINISH IT

(THAT'S ABOUT HOW LONG I TOOK TO READ BOOK 5 OR MAYBE LONGER? WHAHAHHHAH)

AND YAYYY YAYYYY SINCE I WAS HIGH I TAGGED ON RUIYING BLOGGGGG

AH GUO AIN'T I NICE HOHOHO

LALALALA I'M STILL IN THE HIGH HIGH MOOD LEHHHH

OH KAYYYY MAYBE IT SEEMS TO BE A HIGH HIGH MOOD COS SERIOUSLY I DON;T FEEL HIGH INSIDE

so ironic

2008-06-08T16:30:00.002+08:00

MATH IS ALL ABOUT CREATIVITY! & unfortunately i'm lacking it

I LOVE MY CAMERA OHHH KAYYYYYY SO DON'T INSULT MY CAM BLEHHHHS

yepppps IT'S TIME TO JIAYOU ALREADY LALALALA

HOHOHOHOOHOHHOHOHHO AND PRIMITIVE CREATURES LALALALA

BLEHHHHHS I'M SO RANDOM AGAIN LALALA

WAHLALA~~~~~~

2008-05-12T19:30:00.002+08:00

i was rereading my post about the camp and i realised how pissed i had felt last time maybe i'm just not cut out for that kind of stuff i cannot socialise with others i cannot do work i just cannot liek do anything so what's the use for going to camp again this year i'll just make everyone so pissed or i'll get so pissed myself so what's teh use harhh harhhh yeppps yeppps it's a whole load lame stuff i don't want to make myself fell so demoralised or feel so useless or feel so bi shi-ed that yepps i shouldn't even exist in this world yepps why would i put myself to all these kind of pissifiying stuff when i could just say at home catch up on my math catch up on cca catch up on everything totally yeppps i don;t deny i did learn something from it but yeppps the times when i got so pissed off and so offended that i just want to turn back and go home and fa pi qi or cry blah blahhh these times totally outweigh everything even all those niceness about doing behind the scenes stuff and blah i'm just escaping i know but you all just don't understand you all never see it de ohh kayyy you think it's so easy right not like i want it de ohhh kayyyy it's so pissifying i came to china to escape de ohh kayyy from all the stupid deadlines and all those cannot understand de math it's not like i don't like the camp ohh kayyy i want to go at least you will not be the ones participating in the camp but those people in charge but i don't want to put myself to that kind of lame things again people just don't understand and because of that i don't even want to go jc can i just find some all girls' jc and go study in it why must the opposite sex exist so frustrating pui

kayyy lalala back to nicer stuff in china yeppps anyway no one will care de especially about me and blahh but so anywayyy china hmmm i'm trying hard to keep awake yepps i'm trying my best then now in beijing hmmm the school totally is so strict and has so much discipline de totally cannpt stand it hmmm but this is still good larhhh maybe in some ways i don't know larhhh i'm rambling whatever no one will care de trying to do reflections which i have nothing to write about except some negative stuff blehhhs and have to do teh bsp thing tooo blahhhh what am i talking about pui i don't understand blahhhhh it's always like that de whatever no one will bother about me anywayyy so yeppps why am i stilll here in this sickening blog typing so much stuff when no one will even bother to read yeppps i know i'm being very lame blehhhhs i shall remember to delete this blog one day

2008-05-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

yepps finally removed my tagboard this is to minimize future cases of emo-ing

gao ceng people are very scary i'm so scared of them this is not sarcasm yepps
i don't seem to understand their point of view
and evidently they don't seem to understand mine either

i discover my ang moh is totally terrible yepps i can name a fruit blender as a bleacher and a hard cover book as hard copy and paperbacks as soft copies yeppps right wonderful powderful angmoh oh wow

i seriously hate my temper and attitude yes i know it's stupid stupid attitude stupid temper

maybe i should prepare some ice so when i'm like super pissed off then maybe i can eat some and hopefully it's better

cca you are ridiculous
once again that little flame of love for you has died off
yes or maybe you don;t even need my little love at all
it's not important to you
there are so much more people who are willing to give all their heart to you
so yepps

i'm randomly speaking of random stuff

like i once said yes gao ceng people you all can be so busy so stressed so blah blah and you can complain and rant and blah and telling people to come try their lives if they want blah blah

but in the end don't deny you've never enjoyed the process at all you all did have fun ohh kayyy did enjoy yourself put in your heart and soul and then you really made the best out of it and eventually the ending's sweet and nice and you'll have such nice nice memories blah blah

i'm going to die soon i don;t understand math at all and yepps you all can go tell me to study to read it all again to blah blah blah

but you don't know how it feels it's not just some simple formulas like pythagoras or some area or volumes of some random shapes which you can just go memorise all those formulas and just put it into use

it's not ohh kayyy so what if you know all those what trigo formulas and what identities yepps you know but then you just can;t put it into real applications right and you can go try when yepps you've got this raw thing and then you attempt to simplify it by using all those identities blah blah but in the end you just stare and stare and star and simply just don't understand how to continue

ahh yepps you all don't understand de you all are too pro le yepps i's stupid that's right

and it's not just that oh kay please be reminded i literally gave up this whole trigo unit last year for eoys and hoping these kind of questions don't come out or i'll seriously fail

it's the trauma oh kayyy i thought i'll be free from trigo and now they want to come popping out again and expect us to know about them

yepps i know you all knew about them le i don;t oh akyyy i never intended to understand them last year let alone this year i just don;t understand ohh kayyy

why do i keep getting random tchers from last year till now kayyy maybe i'm just not used to their teaching-the-pros method yepps because i'm stupid

yepps yeppps

and now really i don;t even want to go to school and that's why i'm glad to go china

yepps you all don;t have the mood yet cos you all have a lot of commitments what i don;t have i just feel sian and i don't want to rush my hw out so then i just want to drag yepps

i've totally changed ohh kayyyy last time i was so enthu about jap and all that and will feel guilty if i fall asleep in classes and now i'm like totally sleeping half my lessons off

why can't i just don't go to school

2008-05-05T21:23:00.002+08:00

a lot of stuff to do evidently but then suddenly after staring at my dead dead dead tagboard i had this very hmm feeling yepps it's like after so many things after csm after lizi's card after cca it's always this kind of hmm sad? or left out feeling larhhh

it's funny how i can know so many people for four years (and they don't necessarily really know me) and i can only become close to those few among the many
which is yes kind of sad

and like i've always lament i've never had fixed fixed friends yepps lunch buddies project mates or whatsoever but there always seems to be no one whom i can always turn to go out with or have random activities or blah be it after eoys or after csm or what after random half day stuff it always ends up with me going home yepps home home where i'll sleep my day off yepps that's how bored or how sad or what how lonely i've become

hmm and at least in pri school i can still go out and play badminton with some group of people yepps at least i'm kept involved or what entertained?

yepps yepps even though staying at home is nice with tv and my lovely bed and pillows and such but still the feeling whereby you don't even have people to go out with you know

sec sch already like that le yepps jc pui it's not going get any better and maybe when i'm in jc le i won't even bother to go socialise and hi hi people so in the end i will just become some unknown person whom people doesn;t even know exist

and yeppps isn't that the ddiao kind of life i have always wanted hurhhhh utopia yarhh

blehhs i don;t want to cross the bridge le

2008-05-03T12:48:00.002+08:00

lala i've always wanted to do all these kind of quizzes which always appear in my email inboxes last time wahahah and in the end i did none of them cos of one reason or another and yepps shall do one now from yuwen's blog there lalala since i'm still feeling a bit the erhurmmm lalala despite knowing i've got so much stuff to do yepps

THE QUIZ

1. At what age do you wish to get marry?
EHHH BLEHHHS LIKE I CAN GET MARRIED LIKE THAT PUI

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?
BLEHHHS MY FAMILY LARHHH MOST IMPORTANT OHHH KAYYYY
AND PLUS I'VE GOT NO BOYFRIEND SO HOW DO I GAUGE BLEHHS AIYARHHH EITHER WAY BOYFRIENDS ARE STILL NOT AS GOOD BAHHH YEPPS

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
EHHH WHAT MY MAMA (((:

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
EHHHHH NO DEFINITELY NO BLEHHHHS

5. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
AND LET'S WAIT UNTIL THAT DAY FIRST AND MAYBE I SHALL DECIDE THERE AND THEN HMPHHH

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
ERHHHH I USUALLY DON;T SEE ONE SO YEPPS

7. What is your goal for this year?
WHAT GOAL? TO GET INTO JC?

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
ERHHHHH PUIIIIIIIIII YOU MEAN FAMILY LOVE HURHHHH

9. Have you broken someone heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?
BLEHHHHS WHO WOULD BE SO STUPID HURHHHH

10. What feeling do you love most?
WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT FEELING HIGHHHNESS OR WHAT MAYBE DDIAO NESS LALALA

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
WHO WOULD CARE ABOUT WHAT I THINK PUHH LEASE

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
BLEHHHHS PISSED OFF

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
((((:

14. Do you believe in GOD?
I'M A BUDDHIST OHHH KAYYY

15. What do you think is the most important thing in in your life?
MY FAMILY LALALA

16. Who cares for you the most?
MY MAMA AND MY FAMILY LORHHHH OR NO ONE LIAO LORHHH

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
EHHH MY COUSIN? EHH EMO? RANDOM HIGH NESS? THIN AND SMALL?

18. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
A LOT INCLUSIVE ALL THOSE TIMES WHEN I'VE PISSED OTHER PEOPLE OFF

19. IF time were to rewind,what will you want it to be?
HARHHHH? WHAT WANT IT TO BE?

20. why?
WHAT WHY COS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON?

yepps i realise i'm cynical ohh kayy whahahha lalala but who cares no one cares i know yepps so there

2008-04-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

WHAHAHAH CONCERT IS COMING SOON AND CO IS STARTING TO GIVE ME THE NICE NICE FEELING AGAIN MUACKS IT MIGHT BE VERY TEMPORARY BUT IT'S STILL NICE

i don't hate co or anything sometimes i just felt i couldn't fit in but when i find back that nice nice feeling i'll try to like co really

it's something that i cannot bluff about i have the instrument i have the tee i have the uniform and it's the nicest co uniform i've seen (even though i've only seen that many) but still the colour's extra nice and unique and it's got this modern feel in it that's different and stands out from the rest of the schools' co with these i can't deny

and it might not be my ultimate love

but yet it's going to be one lovely lovely memory

2008-04-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SO GLAD ABOUT OUR IH SEMINAR EVEN THOUGH I WAS NOT THERE WHICH IS SADDDD I WOULD LOVE TO BE THERE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE WERE SO SO SO PREPARED AND ME MYSELF I UNDERSTOOD THE THING COMPLETELY AND I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT I EVEN MAKE OUT PLACARDS ALREADY AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE ARE GOING TO TRY PRESENTING WITHOUT SCRIPTS OHH KAYYY OHH MANN SUCH A HISTORICAL MOMENT AND I WAS NOT THERE EEYIKES TSKK TSKKK YI HAN YI HAN ANOTHER REGRETFUL MOMENT IN S4 LIFE YIKES BUT STILL I KNOW WE CAN DO WELL DE REALLY WE PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT WE EVEN REHEARSED OHH KAYYY I KNEW IT I KNEW IT

YAYYYYYYY EYU YAYYYYYYY EVELYN YAYYYYYYYY LIZI OHHH YAYYYYYYY

HOHOHO LOVES LOVES FELLOW GROUP MEMBERS I'M SO SORRY I WAS NOT THERE BUT YEPPPS I BELIEVE IN YOU ALL YOU ALL CAN DO WAY WAY WAY MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER WITHOUT ME THERE DE YEPPPPPS TADA LALALA (((((:

NXT TIME LET;S DO WITHOUT SCRIPTS ONCE MORE WHAHHAAHHAH

2008-04-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

word of the day: lionize

To treat or regard as an object of great interest or importance

hmm that's interesting
i'm being random again blehhhhs
chionging sias blahhhhh

2008-04-21T18:29:00.003+08:00

最痛苦的事就是在你超想睡觉的时候你却不能睡 AND I JUST CAN'T CATCH UP WITH YOU TSKKKK :/

WHAHAHAHAHA I DISCOVERED PEOPLE ARE TALKING A LOT A LOT ABOUT DDIAO WHAHAHAHHA AND I DISCOVERED I'VE BEEN SO SO SO DDIAO LALALA HOHOHO
THOSE WHO CAN;T SEE MY ABSOLUTE WONDEFUL UNBELIEVABLE DDIAO-NESS TRY POPPING IN ON MY CCA DAYYYS I BET I'M DEFINITELY THE MOST DDIAO THEN YEPPS I PROMISE I'M ALWAYS DDIAO LALA HOHOHO

2008-04-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

WHAHAHHAHHA MY LOVE AND PASSION TOWARDS FANTASIC PHYSICS HAS BEEN RELIVENED LALALA YAYYYYYY GOODA GOOOODA OHHHHH MY BELOVED SCIENCES I PROMISE I'LL KEEP ON LOVING YOU DE REALLLY ALTHOUGH YOU ALL MAY NOT LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU BUT REMEMBER MY LOVE TOWARDS YOU ALL WILL NEVER WAVER YESSSSSS OHHH KAYYY MY BEAUTIFUL BIO MY CHARMING CHEM AND NOT TO FORGET MY EVER EVER PRETTATYE AND POWDERFUL PHYSICSSS LALALA STAYYYY BY ME OHHH KAYYYY DON;T LET ME DOWN YARHHHH DON;T BETRAY ME HORHHHH COS YOU KNOW I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU LOVE LOVE LOVE MUACKKKKKKS SCIENCES MUACKKKKKS <333333333

2008-04-18T13:08:00.004+08:00

LA LEARNING LOGGGGGG

china fought with india in the 1962
HARDLY 50 YEARS AGO
sino-india war

WHY IS IT FOUGHT?
current affairs have implications from history
india was fighting the same kind of war as they are with pakistan
india-pakistan war --- 3 times
latest was in 1971

india's china best friend?

indian and chinese economy are argubably the fastest growing economies in the world
did it make it right for china to do a favour to india
cordial cooperation

it's very diffficult to forget a war

anytime war can break out for the same reason

japanese shrine refuses to host olympic torch ceremony
is tibet winning?
dalai lama

discovery of a new oil reserve in brazil

TALKINGCOCK!
talkingcock.com
satirical humour

allusion --- making reference to

MAS SELAMAT PAC MAT!

Maslow's hierarchy of needs
a theory which shows of what people go in life
basic needs physiological -physical
then safety, security, job
then love, belonging -- start to have emotions
esteem
self actualisation

link to the mas selamat game
what he is getting

the concern for the environmental is only for first world nations!
third world nations

2008-04-14T22:56:00.001+08:00

You Are A Bad Date!

Sometimes it just seems like your heart isn't in it

At least, not unless the guy is a dead ringer for Brad Pitt (with more money)

You just don't spend enough time wondering if he's having fun...

And newsflash - he probably isn't!

Do Men Think You're a Good Date?

LALA PEOPLE HOHOHO

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

WHOAAAA

2008-04-14T13:22:00.005+08:00

LA LEARNING LOGGGG

2008 NEPAL'S ELECTIONS

maoism
why want to abolish monarchy
(it's different from why they want to get rid of the king)

the present king killed the formoer king who happened to his brother
thus he could not gain the respect of the people

there had been a lot of versions about how the king died but the king was linked to the massacre

maoism --> linked to communism (bad?)

but why do the people support a seemingly outdated ideology

nepal palace massacre

To be emphasized to students:
It is important to use your own words to answer the question(if it is stated in the question)
It is not necessary to avoid every word in the sentence where the answer is found.
Identify the key word that carries the meaning of the answer and use your own words to express that idea.
It is easier to remain fluent if you change the whole sentence rather than change that key word and keep the rest of the sentence! (DON'T FEEL INSECURE)
Repeating the root word in another form is not acceptable (eg "inspire" changed to "inspiring" is not acceptable
Switching word order is not acceptable (pretty and good --> good and pretty NOT ACCEPTABLE)

For all questions it is important to be relevant i.e. to address the question
(why? --> give reasons --> it is because) ( How? --> by XXX)

a tos specifies how many of each questions you must set

Distinguish the types of questions asked for:
a) literal recall (from text, According to the writer) exclude answers not found in the text
b) inference (between the lines, beyond the text, indirectly available) (infer, imply, suggest)
c) mixed questions (could be both of the above start with literall recall before inferring) -- use common sense
d) Vocabulary questions (for example why does the writer uses these words in describing nepal?)
e) mixed question of b and d where we have vocab plus inference

DO NOT BE CONFUSED BY THE TYPES UNDERSTAND THE EXPECTATIONS OF THE QUESTIONS BUT FIRST RECOGNISE WHAT IT IS

ANSWERS FOR EOY PAPER:
1 a) on foot/walking/trekking
b) any visitor will find something of personal interest
2) myriad stores (lift X) paraphrase: numerous stores/wide range of goods/gems, garments, craft
reasonable prices (X lift) paraphrase: fair prices X cheap
3 a) medieval, anachronistic, nostalgic [the words don;t reflect the word journey?!]
why "time tunnel" is not accepted bacuase it can mean both ways while the answers show that it's going back to the past yeppps
b) a culture with elements of east and west
4 a) its rich culture is preserved by the mountains around it, which have kept it away from the outside world
b) they are difficult/challenging mountains to conquer {X rugged terrains}
c) infrastructure (--> does not necessarily mean buildings)
d) lift: snake/sheer (extremely steep, almost vertical)
paraphrase: winding, steep
5a) to bring out the rapid/sudden progress of Nepal (catapult--> used metaphorically)
b) isolated from the outside world [X not modernized]
c) contrasts between the old and new
6) Kathmandu provides a range of sightseeing attractions
7) "but"! --> contrast? but positive and positive lehhhh --> arouse suspicion! o.o
"exciting" ---> ironic
The monkeys make going to the stupa challenging but the place deserves such an attempt

8) breadth -- wide range/ variety/ diversity
glimpse -- glance / brief, incomplete look, quick look
authentic -- bona fide, genuine, original
allay -- put at ease / relieve (?) / pacify (0)
envelopes - surrounds, wraps

vocab words- 7 or less
don't use words like "something" --> vague
use signalling words instead!
(or access denied/expression denied --> forcing examiner to choose the answer)

european art right and left
right is right left is wrong

colonel bogey march --- the bridge over the river kwai (in thailand?)
death railway
the colonel personally took pride in the formation of the bridge
to the british colonel it's a matter of honourshow how efficient they were

stockholm syndrome:
Stockholm syndrome is a psychological response sometimes seen in an abducted hostage, in which the hostage shows signs of loyalty to the hostage-taker, regardless of the danger (or at least risk) in which the hostage has been placed. Stockholm syndrome is also sometimes discussed in reference to other situations with similar tensions, such as battered person syndrome, rape cases, child abuse cases and bride kidnapping. The syndrome is named after the Norrmalmstorg robbery of Kreditbanken at Norrmalmstorg, Stockholm, Sweden, in which the bank robbers held bank employees hostage from August 23 to August 28 in 1973. In this case, the victims became emotionally attached to their victimizers, and even defended their captors after they were freed from their six-day ordeal. The term Stockholm Syndrome was coined by the criminologist and psychiatrist Nils Bejerot, who assisted the police during the robbery, and referred to the syndrome in a news broadcast
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stockholm_syndrome

2008-04-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

LALALA COME ENLIGHTEN ME PEOPLE QUICK QUICK

FOR MORE DETAILS ON HOW TO ENLIGHTEN ME
PLEASE LOOK TO YOUR LEFT
SEE THE LUNWEN IN CAPS
CLICK ON IT
AND WHAHAHAAHH YOU WILL KNOW HOW TO ENLIGHTEN ME LALALA

THIS IS NOT SCAM OHHH KAYYYY LALALA

TRUST ME AND LOOK INTO MY TRUSTABLE EYES LALALA

WHAHAHHA BAD ENGLISH BUT OHH WELLLS

LALALA I'LL BE WAITING ((((((:

2008-04-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH NITRIC ACID WHY DID YOU BETRAY ME YIKESSSSS
AND MY BELOVED EYES AND BRAIN DID YOU AT THAT POINT OF TIME GIVE UP ON ME TOO
ARGHHHHS WO DE YAN JING WO DE NAO BU YAO PAO QI WO AHHHHH NI MEN ZEN ME KE YI ZHE YANG CAN REN EEYERRRRR
AND NITRIC ACID YOU TOO YOU BETRAYED MY TRUST HURHHH YOU BROUGHT THIS UPON YOURSELF DE HURHHH HURHHH HUO GAI NOW YOU ARE NO LONGER TO BE TRUSTED AGAIN NONONO JUST LIKE SULPHURIC ACID HMPHHH SHUI JIAO NI BEI PAN WO YOU QI PIAN WO DE GAN QING HARHHHH HMPHHHHHH
DEAR DEAR HYDROCHLORIC ACID HUI DAO WO SHEN BIAN BAHHHH WO XIAN ZAI ZHI YOU NI KE YI YI KAO LE HUI LAI BAHHHHH

wahahhahha lame bao even though it's been like so many days le but still i still want to lament or as lydia put it cry over spilt milk whahahh lydia you are very leng dan ((((: and chen tian yepps i complained on my blog again lala but this time it's more creative lalala yayy yayyyy hohoho

and next time i shall learn from xx finish already so xian then go be guai guai and read instructions wahhhh pui you instructions lalala

NITRIC ACID NI ZHE GE PAN TU KUI WO ZHE ME DE XIN REN NI HMPHHHH

2008-04-01T08:57:00.002+08:00

LA learning log (APRILS' FOOL DAY!)

assassinations :

DID CAESAR DESERVE TO DIE?

motivation behind caesar's death
is it justified?

2 or 3 premises behind why caesar die? (SHAKESPEARE CAESAR!)
first premise:
second premise:
CONCLUSION: THEREFORE, CAESAR MUST DIE

"ET TU BRUTE, THEN CAESAR MUST FALL"---- LAST WORD OF CAESAR
The quotation is widely used in Western culture as an epitome(summary or miniature form) of betrayal.

[edit] Interpretation
While the words are commonly interpreted as an expression of shock and betrayal towards Brutus, it has recently been argued that the phrase was instead uttered as a threat.[6][7] Caesar is thought to have adapted the words of a Greek sentence which to the Romans had long since become proverbial.[6] The complete phrase is said to have been "You too my son, will have a taste of power," of which Caesar only needed to invoke the opening words to foreshadow Brutus' own violent death, in response to his assassination.[6] {from wikipedia}

ides of march 15 is an auspicious number?

QUESTION: WHY MUST CAESAR DIE?

premise1 : caesar intends to turn republican rome into his own rule (monarchy)
premise2: caesar's death will restore the roman republic
CONCLUSION: CAESAR MUST DIE!

to a certain extent it's right but there are still a lot of missing premises

is there evidence to show that caesar wants to turn the republican into monarchy

caesar never explicitly says that he wants the crown ("he denied the crown three times" quote)
however his words and actions show that whatever he say and done he portrays himself to be superior than other mortals (evidence?)

caesar is very parodoxical (complicated) DUALITY OF MAN

you cannot say lack of evidence to be a evidence (FALLACY)
NO EVIDENCE THEREFORE

highly likely that republican will be restored after he dies
HOWEVER YOU CANNOT PREDICT THE FUTURE! (FALLACY: non sequitor?)

THUS WAS IT FAIR TO KIL CAESAR---- IT'S NOT ENOUGH TO KILL HIM

there are many arguments but there are still loopholes

how to apply logic when arguing (for and against) fighting in defence of somebody accused of murder :\\\

tighten argument

NEW CABINET --- PM CHANGED SOME MINISTERS PROMOTED NEW MINISTERS PEOPLE RUNNING THE COUNTRY ARE DIFFERENT

(REPRESENTATIVE DEMOCRACY----FAIR? TYRANNY OF MAJORITY?)

reactions that they are disappointed (why are there disappointed?)
tyranny of majority social?religion?gender?
what caused the line of reactions?

what are some of the reactions (good for eg in srq)
counter forms of democracy in the future?

not much change in cabinet
not enough females (will we be threatened that there will be no representation of females?)
[the ruling gvt is very fair and infallible and will not make mistakes and will have no blind spots{ if we have doubts who will check the blind spots? (WHO BETTER KNOW A WORKING WOMAN NEEDS THAN THE WORKING WOMAN HERSELF?) not enough to have working woman/married woman but also single woman so they will know the needs of the single women) IS THERE ANY (PERCEIVED) LACK OF REPRESENTATION apart from gender what about racial?

http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,160658,00.html

summary:
perceived lack of representation (eg spore's latest reshuffle)
caesar's assassination is it sound